HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

What a DAY!!!!!!!! I’m so happy I can’t even explain it!

SO my temp the last few days has been higher than usual.. I thought well, I’ll see what my temp is gonna be Wednesday then go from there. I thought, ah, my temp will probably fall back down. I woke up this morning and my temp was 98.66!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was thinking OMGGGGGG, THIS HAS TO BE IT! I dug out my pregnancy test I’ve had stored away in my closet for the last, like, 6 months LOL! Today I am 15DPO so I was gonna surprise Hubby, sneak and get the test, go in the bathroom this morning but I knew he would be right at the door wondering what was going on, lol. So I told him I was gonna test! He smiled at me as he stood in the kitchen and I closed the door.. I was already shaking! SO, do my thing and set the test on the counter and wait wait wait. In the past I’ve always held my hand over the test so I couldn’t see it LOL. So once I waited a bit, I peered over my hand… Read the rest of this entry »

I just feel so happy! =)

This weekend was great! Saturday Brad and I went grocery shopping with his Mom and 2 of his younger sisters then later that night we went to see Saw IV!!! I thought It was a great movie! I keep thinking that the next Saw movie might be worse than the one before it but nope! They all so far have kept me interested!!! Their might even be a Saw 5! And Brad and I weren’t sure where the mall was before but now we know for sure so maybe we’ll go out and see more movies now! I also would love to see Good Luck Chuck! Looked hilarious!

Well, the rain went away and now It feels GREAT outside during the day but DAMN It’s like 40 at night and gets really cold! Can’t believe Halloween is Wednesday! I’m sure Brad’s Mom will give us candy, lol like she did last year =)

Gonna eat some more peach slices then go make the bed and feed/water the animals! Have a wonderful day!!!!

Hah I’m getting so bad about not updating this thing!

Not much has been going on… It’s just been raining, raining, raining here. Today it’s actually really chilly outside! In the 50’s! That’s the coldest It’s been during the day since… last fall I guess! Ugh, I don’t want it to get really cold. I don’t like the cold. My bones hurt, my hands and feet stay cold CONSTANTLY.

Just mostly been playing Lord of the Rings Online! And I’ve been working on my Kinship (Guild) website and I think It looks pretty nifty. Besides playing – just been doing the usual. Doing a bit of exercise, watching my favorite tv shows and being on the computer lol.

I really do wish Brad and I could move somewhere new though and I’d like both of us to have decent paying jobs, that would be nice. A job that both of us atleast half-way like doing because Brad certainly does not like his job now.

Anyhow, *wave*

LOL. I was so tired this morning – Brad usually wakes me up at 5:15AM and I tell him goodbye when he leaves for work. I was so tired that I did not hear him at ALL. When I woke up, he had already left!

Well, Brad realized how good he has it where he works. Has great money and great hours, just a bit shitty surroundings and people’s attitudes most of the time so he doesn’t want to go for the call support job, lol. I would like to move to have a new place to go, just something new yenno? but *shrug* he said he’s still gonna try to get me a job up there where he works so I guess I’ll wait and wait for that.

The problem with this town is, nobody is EVER hiring in the main little stores. Freds, CVS, Dollar General, ETC. McDonalds is always hiring but.. hahah. Anyhow, just a short post. Gonna work on some more website stuffff then go get some more sleep!

Sorry I haven’t been updating, been busy with Lord of the Rings Online and I’m starting to get back into exercising on the treadmill, yay!!!

I want to rant about something but I’m afraid someone might read it so gonna call my Mom today and rant to her about it, LOL.

Oh and about the call support job – only thing is we would have to drive 30 miles to and from there from where we are sooo we’re gonna see about moving up to where the job is. Gosh, It’s gonna be crazy trying to move.. really don’t want to have to but hey, It’ll be a new change, new job and hopefully Brad and I can join a gym because I won’t have his Mom’s treadmill anymore If we move. We’ll just have to see what happens!

Hope you guys have a great rest of the weeeeek!

Thank you guys for the comments on my last post! Yeah, this whole TTC thing hasn’t been easy but I’m hoping and gonna keep on trying.

I think instead of doing online work I need to get myself out there. This is sad but I’ve never had an outside job. Brad does not like his job at all. We’re thinking about going for a Dell call support center job. Brad’s friends work there and Brad has always wanted to work there – only thing that stopped me is because I don’t like to talk on the phone. I figure though If I just go for it, maybe I’ll even adjust to liking to talk to people on the phone. If we both worked there we’d be making about as much as Brad does by himself so yeah. He wants to leave his job he has now so bad. I need to get Brad’s Grandma/Grandpa to take me to get my ID and while I’m there I’ll even pick up a driving booklet so I can get my permit so atleast I can practice driving safely haha. Once I get my ID, I’d like to get my own bank account.

I think I would be so much happier out working. I’d actually feel like making myself all pretty and I know we would make friends up there. Mostly all the people up there are young and we can wear ordinary clothes and I can keep my piercings!!!! And the job has lots of benefits, paid vacations, paid holidays. If Brad puts in a 2 week notice that should give me enough time to get things situated. I know we would both get the job because lots of Brad’s friends have worked there and we know one of the main guys.

Lastly, I think I need to get out there because I tell you, my social skills are nearing low numbers haha. Ever since High School ended, I haven’t had much contact with anyone. And I know having my own outside job would make me feel better to know I’m making a decent amount of money to help me and Brad, we’d be working together for it. Only thing is, we’d have to have similar hours since I don’t drive yet. I love staying at home but there is so much more out there and I don’t want to waste my life away! I want friends too. And I’m sure I can get atleast a handful of people up there to start playing Lord of the Rings Online since most of them are mad gamers mwahaha! :]

I need to focus on getting the job, eating as good as I can, get back to exercising 6/7 days of the week on the treadmill like I used to (that was the ONLY way I lost weight was to exercise a LOT, like 3 miles a day) then when all is said and done for the day Brad and I can come home to our games, lol.

Okie gotta go make our bed and wait for this Lord of the Rings Online server to download – they have an “extra” server for when the others are down (their down for maintenance until 3PM) and the server is at 72%! Once It’s down I get to go on there and preview the new player HOUSING that’s coming out at the end of this month, woot! Heh I’m such a LOTRO nerd :]

This whole trying to conceive thing is so draining. Espically when I HOPE HOPE HOPE for it to happen and then each time It doesn’t. It’s now been over a year. Coming up close to being a year since I started my medicine. I go back to the Doctor October 30th so maybe she can figure something else out. I dunno.. sometimes I just want to throw the towel in and say forget it but then again I try to hang on to hope.

In other bad news, yesterday I got a message on Myspace from a girl I know from High School asking If I had heard about my best friend Krista’s daughter. I told her no? Last time I saw Krista and her son + daughter was when Mom moved away in August. Apparently, Anna (her daughter) was taking a nap, vomited and choked to death.. I feel so heavy hearted for her. Anna was a beauuuuutiful little baby. Had the cutest little face. Gosh and Krista was big time crazy about her kids so I can’t even imagine how she is feeling right now. I want to call her but I am no good with words when It comes to situations like these. I might attempt even just to show her I care and that I’m there for her even though I just won’t know what to say. I was talking to Mom about it and Mom lost a son – Jimmy when he was only 19 hours old and she said that there isn’t a day that goes by that she doesn’t think of him.

I just hope Krista can make it through okay.