I want 2011 to bring about lots of good changes for me and I’m gonna try my hardest to make that happen.

I cleaned house today then took Katie outside for an hour since WOW, it was a gorgeous day!!! It still feels good outside so I’ve got the living room window open. While Katie and I were outside I was trying to see which bills we need to pay and trying to put moving plans into place since I’m really ready to move forward with this! Brad keeps saying “We’ll figure it out” but I’m ready to get to the actual figuring! Of course we’re using most of our tax money for the move so we have to be really careful so that we don’t wind up spending too much on other things then wind up short with moving money. I can’t tell you how READY I am to have some BIG BIG changes in my life and this move will make all those a reality to me! It’s been lovely being a stay at home Mom for Katie but being alone 99.9% of the time with ONLY Katie… yeah. I’m really kindof over it. I said in the beginning I wanted to be a stay at home Mom and I have been but now I want to get out. I need it badly.

I don’t think I should of done an hour of exercise yesterday because I didn’t feel well yesterday evening and today I haven’t felt the best either. It’s so confusing. I’m trying to figure out what my body needs and what I need to do to get back to where I want to be. I know I need lots of rest. Even though I know I keep saying I need to focus on my health first THEN weight loss but it always ends up I focus on weight loss again. About calories. I ate breakfast this morning then munched on quite a bit of carbs but ah well. I researched about maintaining my weight and with light exercise I can eat around 2,000 calories a day and I’ve been eating around 1,800 so I’ve actually been lacking and that is probably not good with my body all out of balance since it’s needs plenty of nutrition. Uggggggh. Why can’t I just eat like I used to and feel like I used to? I know I can eventually and I will but gotta get over this BUMP in the road first.

It’s just so hard. Patience is important….. I keep telling myself this. Also doesn’t help that I don’t really have much to distract me from these issues. I am tired.