ATLEAST I am excited about a few things today……
>> got more college work done!
>> MOM & I BOTH HAVE DOC APPOINTMENTS TOMORROW MORNING!
>> Brad & I are gonna watch the 1st eppy of the new season of DEXTER tonight… I have missed my fav sexy serial killer ;P
>> Also excited for the new season of THE WALKING DEAD soon

I have all these “what if’s” going through my head about the Doc appointment tomorrow, but just gotta go with the flow and see what happens. My overall hope for the appointment: get blood drawn to look at my cholesterol & also a liver panel to see if those DARN liver enzymes are still elevated (which, they have been since LATE 2009) AND to hopefully see bout going back on Metformin until my insulin resistance CALMS DOWN. I was telling Brad not long ago….. what if the Metformin makes me feel good?! What if I start taking it and soon am able to exercise and LOSE WEIGHT AGAIN?! I’m gonna be positive and say YES. I think my body just needs a little help with the Metformin. THAT WAY I can eat food, exercise, and have ENERGY AGAIN. As long as I’m careful with my calories and food choices then my body should start slimming down again. The thought of that just totally MAKES ME SUPER HAPPY. It is something I have been dreaming of since things started spinning out of control for me health wise.

It’s been another day where I couldn’t keep my hands off certain foods that are not gonna help me….. that is so frustrating, since usually I’m good about stepping back and saying NO, but when I just feel so MEH and the cravings drive me.. I give in so easily.

Praying for excellent things to happen tomorrow. PRAY PRAY PRAY. It’s time for my health struggle TO BE OVER. I’m ready to get better, get a job, get a life, and TRULY LIVE IT. Oh, and I’m still determined to get abs ;D and I WILL HAVE THEM and I WILL BE A RUNNER. I keep repeating about the running but I’m not giving up.

NEVER GIVE IN, NEVER GIVE UP…….. love my motto. <333