Anti-social.

Know what sucks? The fact that I can go out with a group of people (that i know kindof well) and yet still feel like I don’t know how to act or what to say. :blank: That was the case earlier tonight. Brad and I went to Gatlins (Megans fiance) and Megan and a bunch of other people were there. I like being around them but their more of the video gamers and I’m… not so much. I’m also just really mature for my age so some of the jokes don’t really make me giggle like they used to. I feel like a boring old lady already, haha. I wish Brad and I knew a couple around our age who were married and the other girl and I could sit around and talk about babies and shopping and stuff. Once we got to Gatlins, I just stood and watched as Brad and the others played video games. As usual. After so long, we ALL loaded up in our van and went to Pizza Hut. Brad and I got a large stuffed crust with mushrooms, chicken and sausage + some breadsticks. It was awesomely GREAT. They all talked and joked and I mostly sat there, just listening and wondering. We finally all gathered back up in the van to head back to Gatlins. Once we got back there, I stood around and watched all the guys throw an old wooden ladder around until It broke all to pieces.. can we say typical? Next, they took some old full soda cans and threw them hard onto the sidewalk in the front yard and the street so they’d bust. Lastly, they got out some light sabers and play-fought with those. I’m just not into that kindof stuff, at all. :blink: I was definetly the sore thumb tonight. I know I’m more anti-social now than I used to be. That’s what 2 years of isolation will do to ya though. Course I’m even more mature now that I was 2 years ago and It’s amazing what a difference 2 years can make as far as maturing goes. I suppose It was nice just to get out though. After we left Gatlins, we stopped by Mom’s house so I could show her pictures of Abby’s puppies and Brad’s baby pictures that I got from his Grandma! We only stayed for a little bit then headed back home and he almost fell asleep on the way home. Scary. We got home after 11PM and he went to bed soon after.

Let’s seeeee. For the questions asked in my previous entry… grilled pineapple is really, really good. It still tastes like pineapple (of course, lol) but It has a little more something to it, can’t really quite point it out. Did I get an awesome tan? Well, partially. My hands, arms, shoulders, legs and feet got a pretty decent tan but my face is a different story. :faint: OH! For whoever left me LOTS of questions in my question and answer section, THANK YOU! Leave me more!!! Rofl. I love it! :grinny: And wow, I can’t believe how FAST this week went by!

AWWW. Abby’s puppies are adorable!!!! :love: I’ve got some pictures of them that I’ll upload to my photo gallery soon. Anytime I go outside, they come out from under the porch and to my feet. They love the attention! And we’re already starting to feed them solids. Sad news though.. don’t know If I mentioned It or not but the little runt didn’t make it. If you can recall the post where I mentioned he might not make it till the next day.. well, he didn’t. We buried him and put flowers on his little grave. R.I.P little guy.

I was sitting here Thursday night when someone from Little Rock, AR was trying to call (showed up on my Call Wave) and then I heard It was my half-brother Josh! He said he’d call back since he knew I was on the Internet. He called back a little later and I took his call. For those of you clueless, I have a half-brother (Josh, 15) and half-sister (Samantha, 19). We talked on the phone for over an hour! I was happy to get to talk to him. I haven’t seen him or Sam since I was 5. I feel sorry for Josh. Apparently, our Mom (Pam) doesn’t really care all that much about Josh. He’s been left all alone in Little Rock, AR. Pam lives in Louisiana with her boyfriend and will choose him anyday over her kids, which, just pisses me and Mom off to no end! :pissed: That’s why Josh is in Little Rock and she’s in Louisiana. Josh’s Dad is with some new woman and they had a baby together and left not too long ago to go live in California and left Josh. Sam, went off to Tennessee with her boyfriend and son and left Josh. It’s so sad. He’s such a good kid, too. He WAS in school, until Pam was too lazy to even find his papers needed to transfer from one school to another so now he got kicked out of school JUST BECAUSE OF THAT. That too PISSES ME OFF. He was doing GOOD in school and now he can’t go because of her BS. GRRRRRR. :grumpy: It was SO SWEET. He kept saying to me on the phone, “It’s so good to talk to you again” and “I can’t wait to get to meet you and get to know you” It really touched my heart. He just wants someone to talk to and to actually CARE! Apparently, Pam, Josh’s Dad and Sam all went seperate ways and left Josh there in Little Rock, AR to live with some strangers. He now calls them his friends. That’s just terrible. NEVER would I do that to my child, NEVER!!!!! That’s another thing that pisses me off! I mean, WTF?! Anyway, Josh was calling me to tell me that he had called Mom (or Betty Mom as he calls her) and asked If he could come stay with her for a week or two. He was also calling to ask and see if I could make it to see him. He kept saying how bad he wanted me to be there to meet him. Awwww. I told him of course I would be there! I know he’s thrilled about meeting me. Only thing is, he doesn’t really have a way down to my Moms house. He’d have to find a way to get some money and then take a bus. The other day, Brad mentioned that WE could take a road trip and go get him but we’d have to find out where he’s living in Little Rock and It would take quite a bit of money (espically with gas as high as it is) to actually make the trip. Mom hasn’t told him but told us that she would really love for Josh to live with her. Mom doesn’t really have any money (she only gets so much a month) but she said that atleast he WOULD have food everyday and a nice, clean bed to sleep in and people that actually cared about him. Brad also mentioned him coming to live with us but.. I dunno, I don’t know about that. He’d have to sleep on our couch and our money is pretty tight too. He would have a chance at getting back in school living with Mom though, I know that. It’s just so sweet how Josh really seems to look up to me and wants so much to just meet and be around me. Makes me feel really special and really, really loved. Hopefully Mom and I can help him out as much as we can coz we definetly don’t want him out alone living nowhere in Little Rock and that’s probably eventually what’s gonna happen to him If he stays there. Mom is soooooo mad at Pam and Josh’s Dad for just LEAVING Joshua. I am too. What kindof parents do that to their 15 year old son? *sigh*

I think later today, Brad and I might go to Tupelo so I can get my EYEBROWS WAXED, finally! Haven’t had them done in quite a while and their… scary! Hahahah. If we DO go to Tupelo, we’re gonna also go see X-Men 3. We might just go grocery shopping at Wally World OR maybe we’ll do ALL THAT. Who knows. Well, It’s 2:30AM and by the time I take Daxter outside again to use the bathroom one last time, It’ll be close to 3AM and then I’m gonna head to bed for some sleep. I’d like to thank you ALL for the comments on my last entry. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

Have a great Saturday!!!!! :tongue: Nite.