Today has been quite ordinary! I woke up and did not want to get out of bed… ugh. I’ve decided to really cut back on my intake of bread and some of those carbs. Also, big time cut back on my nut intake considering I eat a lot of those! Hah. I wanted to actually walk on the treadmill this morning so I did!!! I walked for 30 minutes and also got to talk to my church friend while walking so that was nice. It’s been a cold, rainy day and not much has been going on. Another church friend of ours dropped by this evening and gave us an early Christmas present!!! It was awfully nice! Brad left for his church meeting this evening and I’m posting this and listening to Fall Out Boy while Katie plays.

I’ve done greaaat with my new eating plan today and I pray I can stick to it and not give into carbs or other temptations. I CAN DOOOOOO IT, hah. Here’s the outline of my new eating:
– really cut back on bread, nuts, oats and all heavier carbs
– of course eat plenty of veggies!
– ive cut out my precious sweet potato for now *sniffles* since it’s a starchy veggie
– I CAN STILL HAVE 1 SERVING OF PEANUT BUTTER THO, WOOOOOOOOO
– plenty of protein! cottage cheese, eggs, turkey, chicken.. bring it!
– try to have carb, fat, protein with each meal
– chug chug chug water
– herbal tea toooo! in fact I drank 2 servings today, not much taste but smells amazing and i love the hot drink

When Brad gets paid Thursday I’m gonna get him to go to the store and buy me some VITAMIN C PACKETS! Probably these…

I’ll get this straightened out SOMEHOW, SOMEWAY! I believe in my Heavenly Father and I know He will guide me! Just gotta hold onto my faith and keep moving forward. That’s all any of us can do..

Last night Brad and I watched the movie Letters To God and I loved it!! What a great movie.

Today:
– it was cold and gloooomy
– got up, ate breakfast then went to buy groceries
– put on some laundry
– attempting to put together a new eating plan to help me feel better
– working on getting right info to get me back on track with my health
– studied scriptures with my lovie

Dinner is cooking and we bought some ranch seasoning to go on our baked chicken = YUMMY. Cannot WAIT to watch the newest episode of The WALKING DEAD! Which we will be watching once dinner is finished… woot woot!

Confession: I’ve been eating too much, espically carbs. I noticed that my body is pretty sensative to carbs because when I lost weight and was going low-carb, I seemed to feel better but back then I didn’t have enough carbs so I’ve gotta work on some BALANCE.

That’s all I got! God loves you… always remember that!

I felt so tired when I went to bed last night but I was planning on going to church this morning. I woke up around the same time Brad did this morning but my eyes hurt SO BADLY and I didn’t want to open them. My nose was more stopped up and I was just tired so Katie and I stayed home from church today. I tried to sleep as long as I could then got up and haven’t done a whole heck of a lot all day… Brad came home around 1:30PM I think and we’ve just been hanging out. After Katie went down for her nap, Brad laid down on the couch and went to sleep so I went and got my penguin blankie and my pillow and laid on the living room floor. I went in and out of sleep and ouch, floor was not comfy… hah. My muscles have really been achy lately too and that really sucks.

I actually found a Doctor online who specialized in Adrenal Fatigue so I’ve been emailing him and so this gives me hope that I can actually feel better soon! I’m SO EAGER to take back my health and I know this Doctor will give me guidance in the right direction.

I look forward to eating dinner and just taking it easy. Have a great night! God loves you!!!!!!!! :love:

WHAT A FLIPPIN DAY IT’S BEEN. I wanted to try to get into the Doc’s office for an appointment today so got up this morning for the usual and then after Brad left I realized… I FORGOT THE CARSEAT. Great! Decided to call a church friend of mine who HAS a carseat and she said she could take me If I got an appointment. Brad called me right before I was about to call the Doc this morning and said he forgot his blood pressure meds and needed it so I had to get that to him soon. I called the Doc and got an appointment for 1PM and so my church friend came and got me then we went by Brad’s work to give him the meds then I went to hang out at her house till my appointment. I got to the Docs at 1PM and Katie stayed with my church friend and they went to Wal-Mart for a while. I was at the Doc’s office for like 3 HOURS. They took some blood and even tho I tried to talk to the Doc about all my symptoms and that I had mentioned I thought It was my adrenal gland.. what do you think they said? What most Docs say. YOU’RE DEPRESSED. She said it like 3 different times and then at one point asked me If I had thoughts of hurting myself… I’m like UH NO! She also talked to me like I was a 2 year old at the end of the appointment. WAS NOT PLEASED ONE BIT.

She said we won’t know much else till all the bloodwork comes back and it’s gonna take a bit to get it all back since they had to send it to different labs so I go back in 2 weeks. She said in the meantime, she could give me some MEDS to help me. HAAAAAAA. No thanks. She wrote me the prescription and said that I could decide If I wanted to wait and see what bloodwork showed or go ahead and fill the prescription.

Just wow.

*sigh*

I’m exhausted.

I’m more than READY to feel like myself again! I went online to check our health insurance status since we upgraded recently and Brad was worried it wasn’t active yet BUT I went to our account and we are active so I’m calling in the morning to try and get an appointment ASAP! Everything points to adrenal fatigue and my gyno did recommend about a month ago that I go to my family Doc and get my cortisol levels checked so I’m going to tell the Doc my whole story and see what happens! I’m anxious but also excited to see what happens. Well, IF I can get an appointment and IF my church friend will be able to take me. Also – woke up this morning with a little sore throat. GREAT. Katie’s had a runny nose for a bit now and so I really hope I don’t get sick. I’ve felt pretty dragged today on top of my everyday usual fatigue so I’ve just been laying around all day.

Brad and I wound up going to his Dad’s side of the family Thanksgiving dinner last night. I thought about staying home since I’ve been feeling tired but I went anyway even though I also kindof wanted to stay home BUT I’m glad I went! It started raining later into the evening and then got much COLDER. It was cold and rainy on the way home and today has been even COLDER. Tonight = EVEN COLDER. I’ve been freezing all day and trying to stay close to the portable heater. I was going to watch the Biggest Loser “Where Are They Now” special last night but by the time we got home and settled It was around 10:30PM and the special is a little over an hour and 30 minutes so I decided to hold off UNTIL TONIGHT! WOOT!

Gonna relax tonight, attempt to stay warm, watch the special and just chill with my love once he gets home! PRAYING for good results for tomorrow… I’m ready for a turning point. Ready to have the true ME back! THAT IS FOR SURE!

:bye:

Tomorrow is Turkey Day! I’m not sure what we’re gonna do yet exactly. Brad is hoping that it won’t rain so he can get up in the morning and go play football with some guys from church. They try to get together and do that every year but it might rain and If it does their gonna do it Friday morning but Brad only gets off tomorrow so of course he won’t get to if they do it Friday. We might go to one of Brad’s families Thanksgiving dinners but we’ll see what happens. I used to be more into holidays but this year I honestly can say that I’m not excited because of all that’s going on with me. I’m so disinterested in everything and I HATE that I feel this way. Brad recently upgraded our health insurance and we got a letter a few days ago stating that our current insurance has ended so Brad’s gonna ask the people at his work about it and when we make sure our upgraded insurance is going then I’m gonna go to my family Doc and see If they can help me at all with this fatigue. Again I’m pretty positive I have adrenal fatigue — that my adrenal glands are running on low. Hopefully they can help me figure out a way to help me get better… I REALLY REALLY hope so!!!!!!!!

I finished the rest of my online work tonight and my day hasn’t been eventful but pretty usual day for moi. Just like last Wednesday I got on the exercise bike, read my scriptures and kept a steady, medium pace and I didn’t even turn on the display but I think I went for about ~35 minutes or so and I felt relaxed which is what I’m going for.

:cute:

About to put Katie to bed, wait for my love and we’re gonna watch BIGGEST LOSER! Makeover week – YES!!! Always remember… God loves you!!! Never give up hope for He will comfort and guide you through all things If you just believe.

It was warm enough last night to open up our bedroom window! In fact, I woke up randomly during the night because I got pretty hot. I was woken up early this morning by the sounds of rain and wind!

AWWWWEEEEEEEE. We watched Toy Story 3 today and It brought me right back to my childhood! I was raised on Disney movies and remember when the first Toy Story came about! I really enjoyed the 3rd movie and did cry at the end! Of course my all time favorite Disney movie, The Lion King will always remain at the top of my list!!!

Re-cap of my day:
– Toy Story 3
– online work
– cooked dinner
– folded laundry

Just finished a Zone bar and some Tension Tamer tea! Waiting for 8pm to bathe and put Katie to bed then once again wait… for my love to come home from his church meeting. Now I leave you with love…

What’s your favorite Disney movie? Have you seen Toy Story 3?

Saturday night, Brad told me that we’d be having a whole house full of people over that I’d never met except for one of the guys…. uh, okay wow! Brad works with 2 of the guys and they wanted to bring their friends over to play D&D. It was so nice!!!! I’m hoping we can make a few new friends that could hopefully become closer friends. They arrived like 7:30PM and I went to bed a little after midnight and Brad said they left about 1AM. We haven’t had that many people in our house in a long time! Excited! I hope they wanna hang out a lot more.

I was so tired last night and so tired when I woke up this morning. I eventually got up and fixed breakfast and we just kindof hung out until after 1PM then got ready to head out for groceries! One of the guys that came over last night works at Wal-Mart so we said hello to him! I picked up peanut butter cookie dough Zone bars! I tried one tonight… delish! Brad has been eyeing herbal teas for a while now and yes, we are Mormon but It’s been stated that we are to avoid black, white and green teas but herbal teas are okay. It’s all about personal choice though – no one forces us to NEVER EVER drink green tea again but It’s all about keeping our body clean. We decided to buy 2 different kinds of herbal tea and our favorite was mine… tension tamer! IT IS SO GOOD and has wonderful things in it that will hopefully help me tame some of my every day tension and stress that seems to overwhelm me. We came home and I got a few things done around the house. We watched the lastest episode of Fringe – AAAAAAAAAH. OMG. I cannot WAIT TO SEE NEXT WEEK! We still need to watch the latest One Tree Hill and The Walking Dead plus I want to see Toy Story 3 tooooo but I don’t know If we’ll get all that done tonight or not.

Also can’t wait to study scripture with my lovie! :love:
What TV show or movie are you eager to see???

Through The Gospel I have transformed my life and opened doors to things I’d never considered or thought about before. I’m still working on being more open minded to things but I am only human after all… as we all are.

Seek Him and He shall guide you!

What is one thing you’ve learned this year that’s made a difference in your life? I’ve learned that I try way too hard. Working on that one but we’re all a work in progress.