Friday night!

I know some people come to my site and see nothing but random sponsered posts – I try to write a normal blog after them but I’ve just been slacking lately haha so I apologize for not blogging regular posts more often. I’m proud to say I’m keeping up with my 366 on Flickr though! 😀

Lately I’ve been really down about not having friends to hang out with randomly. I miss that more than anything… being able to have real close friends who just want to go out like once a week? Once every 2 weeks even???? So I was more than HAPPY when Brad’s friend (well she’s my friend too) Amanda and her boyfriend Micheal wanted to hang out Friday night! I was really, really hoping the plans were gonna stick and that we would be able to go out with FRIENDS for once in a really long time! Even though It was raining – we did get to hang out and had such a great time! A trip to Petsmart first then to the mall where I FINALLY got my eyebrows waxed, lol. Been wanting to get those done for months. Went to other various stores but I was tiring out, lol. My feet were starting to really hurt and swell.. I should have NOT worn my Vans shoes out because their so FLAT and I’m not used to that at all but after roaming in FYE, I went outside the store and sat on a bench for a bit while they finished looking around in there. Went to one more store and by that time I felt like I was gonna pass out.. because my feet were hurting, I was hungry and thirsty and a bit sweaty. After the mall, we went to my FAVORITE place! The New China Buffet! I love that place! Really really really great chinese food for a great price. We all ate until we couldn’t anymore, lol. I had 2 plates then a dessert plate and I was completely and utterly satisified. I swear. I wish our little town here had a chinese buffet like that. We have a small one but It’s NOTHING compared to that place! *DROOOL* After stuffing our bellies, we went to randomly roam and hang out at Wal-Mart! Mostly I spent time with Amanda and Brad spent time with Micheal. We all had a blast! It was sooooooooo nice to have a girl to talk to!!! And I know Brad enjoyed having a guy to talk to and be randomly silly with – and they were lol both of them incredibly silly!
They took us back home and we said we’d hang out again sometime soon again. I REALLY hope so! I had a blast!!!!!

The weather is bizarre around here – 70 degrees today and was around that yesterday but we’re gonna get thunderstorms tonight then a cold front comes in so the highs tomorrow won’t be but around 30-40’s and a chance of FLURRIES. Crazy!!!!!! I like this warm weather! Don’t want cold again! Our thunderstorms tonight might be pretty severe.. all day the wind has been really high.

As far as baby goes! I’m feeling our little baby a bit more often now which just melts my heart. I simply cannot wait to hold this little one! Neither can Brad.. we’re always talking about it. *happy sigh* 🙂 I really love my belly bump lol Tomorrow I’ll be 22 weeks and have about 2 weeks until we see If this little one is a GIRL OR BOY!!!!!!!!!!! Yay Yay Yay!!!

For some reason today I just feel really happy and high energy! Which is excellent – Brad also had a good day so that makes me even happier to know that. I got pretty emotional Saturday worrying about money and buying things of our own for baby – I know lots of people are gonna buy us things for the baby but I also want to buy things ourselves! Brad and I have started a little savings pot just for baby. Makes me feel a lot better! Once we get so much saved up, we’ll go out a buy a little at a time! So I feel better about that. Alright! I guess that about wraps up my post! Have a great rest-of Monday!!!!

Making friends

One thing I miss more than ANY-THING is having a few close friends who want to hang out. I have no one now except Brad. To tell the truth, I’ve never been good at making friends… just because I’m quite shy and don’t know what to say half the time.

So.. when you live in a small town and don’t have the most outgoing personality

how do you make new friends ???

I would love to have a few new friends for Brad and I both to hang out with. We both get so bored at home but neither one of us know how to get out there and make new friends.

advice? comments? anything? =( i miss my old friends dearly.

Weekend

Had a great weekend, what about you guys? Friday night, Brad and I did wind up getting chinese food. I tried the hot & spicy shrimp.. haha. Wrong choice! It wasn’t hot or spicy but very ONION-ish. It was nothing but a few vegetables, little shrimp and TONS of cut up onions. I just picked out the shrimp.. argh. Saturday night, Brad’s friends Alex and Amanda came over and Brad was gonna take us all out to eat @ Red Lobster sooo that’s what we do. Took a while to drive out there. I wind up getting grilled shrimp and mashed potatoes. HAHA They gave me one tiny scoop of potatoes.. atleast the shrimp was good and I ate it all. First time I’ve ate that much in a while. Just wish they would have given me more mashed potatoes! Had a good time though.. then afterwards we were gonna go meet up with another one of Brads friends but he was busy so we went to Wal-Mart to wait around to see If he was gonna be done anytime soon. I think we stayed there like 2 hours. It was after midnight when we left Wal-Mart and Brad’s friend still hadn’t called so we just left and headed back home THEN he called us on the way back and we got to talk to him on the phone.

Got home, took my vitamin, ate a little and Alex and Amanda hung out for a bit then they left and I think I went to bed not too long afterwards. Since yesterday I have felt DRAINED. I’m starving but I also feel very sick at times so It sucks, lol. I’m just waiting for the puke city to start haha. I didn’t eat much yesterday and haven’t eaten much today either. I woke up @ 3AM this morning.. STARVING with a really sick feeling all at the same time so I got up, ate a little goldfish snack and a little piece of these corn flake-mashmellow treats that Brad made yesterday and drank some Sunny D and sat on the couch to see If I would feel a little better. I finally went and laid back down. *sigh* Hopefully I’ll be able to eat a little dinner.. depends on what we’re having. If not then I guess I’ll snack around on this and that when I get home tonight.

YAAAAY, Brad is off Thanksgiving (Thursday) AND FRIDAY, woot! Can’t wait till Wednesday, I’ll be 7 weeks! Our tiny baby is growing, growing!

Thoughts

Thank you guys for the comments on my last post! Yeah, this whole TTC thing hasn’t been easy but I’m hoping and gonna keep on trying.

I think instead of doing online work I need to get myself out there. This is sad but I’ve never had an outside job. Brad does not like his job at all. We’re thinking about going for a Dell call support center job. Brad’s friends work there and Brad has always wanted to work there – only thing that stopped me is because I don’t like to talk on the phone. I figure though If I just go for it, maybe I’ll even adjust to liking to talk to people on the phone. If we both worked there we’d be making about as much as Brad does by himself so yeah. He wants to leave his job he has now so bad. I need to get Brad’s Grandma/Grandpa to take me to get my ID and while I’m there I’ll even pick up a driving booklet so I can get my permit so atleast I can practice driving safely haha. Once I get my ID, I’d like to get my own bank account.

I think I would be so much happier out working. I’d actually feel like making myself all pretty and I know we would make friends up there. Mostly all the people up there are young and we can wear ordinary clothes and I can keep my piercings!!!! And the job has lots of benefits, paid vacations, paid holidays. If Brad puts in a 2 week notice that should give me enough time to get things situated. I know we would both get the job because lots of Brad’s friends have worked there and we know one of the main guys.

Lastly, I think I need to get out there because I tell you, my social skills are nearing low numbers haha. Ever since High School ended, I haven’t had much contact with anyone. And I know having my own outside job would make me feel better to know I’m making a decent amount of money to help me and Brad, we’d be working together for it. Only thing is, we’d have to have similar hours since I don’t drive yet. I love staying at home but there is so much more out there and I don’t want to waste my life away! I want friends too. And I’m sure I can get atleast a handful of people up there to start playing Lord of the Rings Online since most of them are mad gamers mwahaha! :]

I need to focus on getting the job, eating as good as I can, get back to exercising 6/7 days of the week on the treadmill like I used to (that was the ONLY way I lost weight was to exercise a LOT, like 3 miles a day) then when all is said and done for the day Brad and I can come home to our games, lol.

Okie gotta go make our bed and wait for this Lord of the Rings Online server to download – they have an “extra” server for when the others are down (their down for maintenance until 3PM) and the server is at 72%! Once It’s down I get to go on there and preview the new player HOUSING that’s coming out at the end of this month, woot! Heh I’m such a LOTRO nerd :]

:(

This whole trying to conceive thing is so draining. Espically when I HOPE HOPE HOPE for it to happen and then each time It doesn’t. It’s now been over a year. Coming up close to being a year since I started my medicine. I go back to the Doctor October 30th so maybe she can figure something else out. I dunno.. sometimes I just want to throw the towel in and say forget it but then again I try to hang on to hope.

In other bad news, yesterday I got a message on Myspace from a girl I know from High School asking If I had heard about my best friend Krista’s daughter. I told her no? Last time I saw Krista and her son + daughter was when Mom moved away in August. Apparently, Anna (her daughter) was taking a nap, vomited and choked to death.. 🙁 I feel so heavy hearted for her. Anna was a beauuuuutiful little baby. Had the cutest little face. Gosh and Krista was big time crazy about her kids so I can’t even imagine how she is feeling right now. I want to call her but I am no good with words when It comes to situations like these. I might attempt even just to show her I care and that I’m there for her even though I just won’t know what to say. I was talking to Mom about it and Mom lost a son – Jimmy when he was only 19 hours old and she said that there isn’t a day that goes by that she doesn’t think of him.

I just hope Krista can make it through okay.

Hair!

What an EXCELLENT weekend Brad and I had!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry I haven’t been updating!

Friday after Brad got off work, I was still busy cleaning cleaning cleaning! A little bit later on he said he was going to the store to buy dinner for us! He got back and I was in the extra room and he said dinner was a surprise, lol. :grinny: Man, I realllly cleaned. I still have a few things I need to clean but for the most part our apartment is nice!!!! I got done cleaning and needed a shower big time! Jumped in the shower to shave my legs and wash my hair! Brad kept peeking in asking me If I was almost done because dinner was almost, lol. He bought us these yummy rolls, cooked cheesy chicken rice and black eyed peas! It was yum!!! We just relaxed the rest of the Friday.

Saturday, we got up and I was trying to think of a place where I could get my hair cut. Then I remembered that the Wal-Mart we go to actually has a salon in it! Decided to go ahead and get my hair cut there!!! Got to Wal-Mart and walked into the salon, signed my name and went back. The lady washed my hair then I told her about my very troublesome hair. Then she asked about Kenny (One of Brad’s friends) and It DAWNED on me who this woman was! Kenny’s EX!! I felt really bad for not knowing who she was from the beginning but I’ve only seen her a few times before. She asked how Kenny was doing and such.. she broke up with him and he was really torn up about it for quite a long time. Anyhow, I told her I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do with my hair. Told her I had tried to look online for hairstyles and she shook her head, there really isn’t much. She went and got a hairstyle book and was flipping through. I had told her how I’ve had layers before, lots and the higher layers made my hair poofy so she showed me this picture and I said sure! She had to cut off a couple inches of just dead hair! Keep in mind my hair hadn’t been cut since May 2004!!!! I decided to go with just a few layers towards the bottom and she asked If I wanted her to dry it and hot iron it? SURE!! :grinny: :grinny: Of course by the time she got done with it, It looked great!!! My hair felt funny because It felt so light LOL. After I was done there, we went in search of a hot iron for me! We bought one then I also bought some gel spray. Bought our groceries, yadda yadda. Once we got home, Brad’s friend Alex called and said him and his girlfriend were coming over to hang out. Put up groceries and started cooking dinner (hot dogs & mac n cheese) sooo they stayed a couple hours which was nice!!

Sunday was spent doing laundry mostly. Washed and fixed my hair then called Mom! Last night we went to Brad’s Moms to eat dinner and watc the SEASON FINALE of The 4400 and The Deadzone, both were VERY good!!!!!!!!!! Another thing that made this weekend rock was the AWESOME weather!!! It’s still very nice outside even today! Yay!!! I’m very proud of my new cut hair though, lol. Well I had better get up.. gotta give Trev the Iguana a bath and feed him then feed + water the other bebies. Then wash some dishes, fold some laundry then wash my hair and use my nice new hot iron on it again! I LOVE it!!! Have a great day!!!!! 😎 😎

P.S. Brad and I LOVE the new Chevelle song!!!! Hehehe

Helloz!

How’s everyone been doin? Good I hope! SO. Back to Monday. Brad had a contact lense crisis this morning and threw a fit because he couldn’t get his contact out – It had gotten stuck so his Mom came over to help.. eventually he got it and he was only a few minutes late for work. (but he loses his week bonus for being 1 second late)

We were supposed to go out with some friends this weekend but didn’t because the girl wound up going with another one of her friends to a football game so haha yeah. Very bland weekend… just stayed up just about all night Friday night and then Saturday again. Went shopping Saturday. We did make a DELICIOUS dinner Saturday though! We made Easy Chicken Paprika + Green Bean Casserole. OMG, the green bean casserole was so so so good. Can’t tell you when the last time was that I had that but It’s one of my favoriteeee dishes!!

HEY Jenn!!! I’m doing good hun! Good to hear from you again :grinny: was wondering about you! How have you been? Are you gonna bring 0ne1 back??? *hugs*

Wanted to thank you all for your comments!!!! Okie.. not much to tell, lol. Gotta get up and get some things done! Have a gooooood Monday! 😎 😎 😎

Memories

I couldn’t stop crying this morning. 🙁 Thinking about how everything used to be, living back home with Mom – the memories in that house. THE MEMORIES WITH MY FRIENDS, OMG! 🙁 I truly and really have been so isolated these past few years that I am so anxious around people these days. I used to be this really, really, silly, goofy full of spunk person but since I haven’t had any friend interaction in such a long time my sense of humor is different than It used to be. I’ve always been pretty mature for my age and now I think It’s even moreso. I miss how me and my best friend Allen would just be each other’s company for the whole entire summer day. Now I don’t even get to see him anymore. :blink: Brad is my best friend but the thing is all he wants to do when he gets home is get a shower and play his computer game. :blank: I’ve tried talking him into doing things, he says right now It’s too hot to go outside and do stuff, which, I agree. I got him to go to the store with me the other day to just look around. It’s different though.. he’s my husband, yenno? I really need a close girl friend.

I was also thinking about Mom. How she raised me as her own. Took me in and did so much for me. I think about how once Brad and I have a baby.. she probably won’t be here to be in the delivery room with us. I would want her there, too because she means the WORLD to me. I want her close so she can see our baby. And thinking about her not just made me cry even more this morning. I know my Mom and I didn’t get along for quite a long time but once we got on good terms (which, we still are) It’s been awesome and I just miss her now that she lives 4-5 hours away. Can’t just go over on the weekend anytime we want. 🙁 Mom really, really is my angel. Her and my Grandpa (RIP Gpa) both, I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for their big hearts.

Friends?

Interesting weekend.. Friday evening Brad wanted to go hang out with some people we know and I didn’t want to, really. The girl, Megan, used to be my best friend in High School. She’s now married. Anyhow, they NEVER want to come see us. They were living 2 HOURS away from us and we actually took a trip out to spend the night with them last year. We asked again and again for them to come see us. They kept asking us to come back. I JUST DON’T CONSIDER THAT FRIENDSHIP. Isn’t it a 2 way street on both parts? COME ON NOW. Well now they live close to the town where my Mom was living – which is about an hour away from our house. I tried to convince Brad that THEY WON’T come see us. I KNOW THEY WON’T. He’s like, “Maybe they will now that we live in the apartment” HAHAH. We were living in the apartment last year and they still didn’t come see us. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I just want some friends who want to come HANG OUT WITH ME TOO YENNO. It just pisses me off 10000000%. We wound up going though. *sigh* I didn’t say anything, really. Just sat and watched the guys play video games. Finally got my Buffy Season 3 DVD set back after… almost 2 years I think since Megan borrowed it? Am I being too harsh? I don’t think I am. I THINK FRIENDS SHOULD VISIT EACH OTHER, not just ONE!!!! Whatever. I don’t have friends anymore, everyone is doing their own thing. People don’t call, people don’t visit. @#$@#$@#$!!! And the ones that have the Internet don’t even stay in contact ONLINE besides the ONCE IN A MONTH “hey”! :pissed:

*sigh* Atleast I have Brad. I won’t be going back to their house. If Brad wants to go, bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I won’t do it. I’m too stubborn and think that that’s how FRIENDSHIP is supposed to be. So we left their house a little after 9pm since we were starving (hadn’t eaten dinner) so we went to the new KFC/Taco Bell there in that town. Got our usual Taco Bell order – burritos + cinnamon twists THEN also got a large KFC mashed potato + gravy. OMG so good. I looove their mashed potatoes. We ate then went to Sonic and Brad got me a cookie dough blast!!! :grinny: Headed back home and I think Brad kept dozing off.. he said he didn’t but It looked like it to me, he said his eyes were just getting “blurry” (he had his glasses on instead of his contacts) but he kept almost going off the road and was scaring the shit out of me. That’s one reason I can’t wait to get to driving is so I can drive us places at night coz most of the time Brad dozes off. He’s done it many many times before. Scary as crap!!! We made it back home then Brad’s cousin came over that night and stayed the weekend with us. Went grocery shopping Saturday and the rest of the weekend was spent playing games, doing laundry and sitting around haha. Went over to Brad’s Moms last night & ate supper + watched The 4400 and The Deadzone.

Christine: sweet tea is just regular tea with sugar :grinny: I CANNOT for the life of me drink just PLAIN tea. EWWWWW. I think it’s really gross haha.

Janet: No, getting my eyebrow pierced did not hurt =) But I’m high tolerant on pain so yeah lol.

Oh and thanks for the comments everyone!!!! :] Have a great Monday!

Yayz

I’m SO happy that Terry Fator won America’s Got Talent last night! Yay yay yay!!!! He has an amazing talent hehe and I laughed at Kermit and the CHICKENS hahaha!!! :teeth: I think Cas is a good singer but look at Terry’s talent! :grinny: Now tonight is the top 5 of Last Comic Standing! Hmmm. I’m thinking Lavelle is gonna win.

I just turned the air off because I am freezing! Oh, Brad’s Mom got this older man to come and mow their lawn so she got him to come over and cut ours today! He did an EXCELLENT job! Our lawn looks real nice now. Know what I really miss? Just being outside in general. I don’t spend hardly any time outside anymore and I’ve always been an outside gal. Going for walks, exploring woods and playing in creeks! That was me. Brad doesn’t like to go outside and I don’t really like to be by myself. Sometimes I just sit here, stare outside at the beautiful day and really miss being out there. Would love to have a nature-type job.

Hmm, I hope we actually do something exciting this weekend. Usually Brad’s cousin comes over, they play Diablo on their laptops and I play Lord of the Rings Online and.. yeah. I’d like to actually go out and do something! Hopefully we will. I love to sit home and game but It’s also nice to go out sometimes! :thumbsup: Well, off to do a few things, have a great day! 🙂