Website: Newww layoout!!! Version 14! Not sure If I like it that much yet or not. I might wind up changing a few things around If I’m eventually not satisfied with it. I really like the header image. I espically love Maroon 5. Muah Adam Levine!! Muah muah.

Love: You know. Even though Brad can kindof irk me sometimes, (who doesn’t get irked every now and then tho?) I am just amazed at how close we are. He came into my life out of NOWHERE! I had no clue who he was. We were both love-struck when we met one another. We were laying in bed together the other night, with me laying on his chest. Talking about our first time’s and remembering all the memorable moments. He mentioned he remembers after he left my friends house after meeting me how he couldn’t stop thinking about me. I couldn’t help but tear up. Our first kiss. Brad said to me, “Was it like a kiss out of a Dawson’s Creek episode?” I smiled. It was, truly. My knee was shaking uncontrollably as I experienced my first true kiss. Remembering one night when Brad’s friend came over and while he watched over Brad’s little sisters we giggled our way upstairs to take our first bath together, lol. Brad lit candles and It’s one of those things you never forget. Spending the weekend with him.. him chasing me up the stairs and biting on my knee. (which tickles!) Memories are really dear to me. Every one of them. I am so lucky and blessed to have a love like ours. So very, very blessed.

Now I end with a very bittersweet song to match all this love talk.

what would you do if we woke up and the whole world was gone?
well would you believe with me is where you belong?
well there goes the world and we’re right in the middle
there goes the world and we’re right in the middle
i said leave me here. i said leave me here.. with you
as the city crumbles i see that there’s nothing left behind
as we lay here together feel your heart beat with mine
with time standing still, here is where we’ve always been
well there goes the world and we’re right in the middle again
i said leave me here. i said leave me here.
i said leave me here. i said leave me here with you…

Holy COLD! It is 39 out right now but feels much colder! I’ve got a sweater on and am thinking of turning on the heater. What sucks though is this weekend It’s supposed to be 75! 😯 Wish the weather would make up it’s mind!!!

I cannot WAIT FOR ER’s EPISODE TONIGHT! It’s the 300th episode with 300 patients in 1 day! Should be interesting. It’s their last episode until the new year. I know My Name is Earl is also a new episode!

Well, Brads Stepdad took us back up to Wal-Mart again yesterday so Brad could get his eye exam! It took about 35 minutes I guess. I didn’t do anything except sit near the entrance and watch people go in and out. Interesting to see what all kind of people come through. Brad got his eye exam and a trial pair of contacts so he is happy! He has to set up a final fitting appointment this afternoon – he said he’ll probably make it for this coming Monday. Then he can get a whole box of contacts and he has the prescription for his glasses whenever he wants to buy those too.

Pregnancy is going good! 🙂 I’m actually very surprised at how well It has gone as far as how I’m feeling. I’ve only thrown up once my whole pregnancy so far, haven’t had TOO bad of nausea and so far no heartburn. I may wake up tomorrow and have horrible heartburn, who knows. I think what helps me is the fact that I’m a very slow eater, lol. So my food digests very well.

Speaking of food, soon I’m gonna go fix my favorite thing ATM: spaghetti-o’s!!! 😆 Finishing up my small glass of V8 right now. OK, have a great evening!!! 😀

I’m soooo excited to be 9 weeks pregnant! 😀 Can’t wait for the next few weeks to go by! I thought I would be 9 weeks tomorrow but that was my “estimated” due date so I used a due date calculator. The doc said I’m “due” July 10th just from my LMP but when I used an online calculator it said July 8th so yeah. It’s gonna be so exciting to get to hold my baby. OUR BABY!!!

SO. What’s up? I’m sitting here drinking hot chocolate. It is yummmmmy! Had to get up a minute ago and turn on the heater because I was freezing! It’s been getting really cold late at night. During the day so far this week It’s been OK. Just a little chilly but It’s supposed to be windy for the rest of the week.

This afternoon, Brads Stepdad took me and Brad to Wal-Mart to see about him getting an eye exam and we got there after 4:30 and the woman said he saw his last patient @ 4:30… UGGGGGH. She set him up for 4:30PM tomorrow even tho he usually doesn’t see people AFTER 4:30 but Brad desperatley needs to be seen so he can get new contacts. He REALLY needs new glasses too but he’s not gonna do it. He just wants the contacts so *shrug* Haha.

Seems like today should be Wednesday instead of Tuesday. Soon It will be Wednesday tho!!!

WOHOO! I’m sooo happy It’s finally December! Now I’m hoping It will go by fairly quick! Can’t wait to travel and see Mom and celebrate Christmas! 😀

I thought about blogging this weekend but eh, decided to wait. Friday I did my cleaning and Brad was gonna clean the animal cages but we were both hungry so he went and bought McDonalds. By the time we ate, he was too tired hah!! He woke up early Saturday (after 9AM) and wanted to clean the cages so I got up, ate then I helped him slightly with all the animal cages but he did most of it. Of course Saturday we went grocery shopping and bought a few Christmas presents hehe. Just got a few more to get then we’ll be done. Hopefully can buy up the rest this weekend! We had a YUMMY dinner Saturday! Ate tuna helper and mac and cheese! While we ate we finally watched License to Wed! What a lovely movie!!! I thought It was great. I LOVE JOHN KRASINSKI! He seems like such a wonderful guy!

Also, Brad had talked to a woman at his work about our Iguana and she said she would come get him Saturday. Brad said she kindof sounded like she would back out of it though and she must have because she never showed up. Oh well… speaking of animals, we MUST put an ad in the paper and see If we can sell any of them. I’d like to have them sold before we left for Christmas but I guess we’ll see what happens.

Brad’s eye contact ripped last week so he’s had to wear his glasses (that he’s had since he was like 12? 14?) and he can’t really see that good out of them, espically at night. We need to go to the eye center @ Wal-Mart and Brad’s Mom said she would take him but come to find out the eye Doc wouldn’t be there during the weekend only Mon-Thur so maybe we can see about going when he gets off work because he really needs new glasses and contacts but right now he just wants new contacts. He’s had those contacts… for I dunno almost a year probably? I know It’s been a loooong time.

Overall, Thanksgiving was great! Went to Brads cousins house to eat and chat. That afternoon/evening, we went with Brads Mom and their crew to Wal-Mart. Brad and I bought a few things – including dinner for ourselves since we didn’t have anything @ home. I also got a new pair of pants! Wohoo, hopefully I’ll be able to wear them atleast for a little before my belly starts to pop out, ahh!!! 🙂 Brads Mom bought us Shrek 3 that I mentioned we watched last night, what a cute movie! I LOVED the flying baby donkeys lol!

Todays been goood! Brad and I both were soo tired last night we went to bed before midnight! I slept in today till almost 1pm, lol. I did not want to get up. I slept way too long though so when I did get up, I felt woozy so I ate and drank some water. Gotta drink plenty of water, don’t wanna get dehydrated. Brad has been a great big help today!!! He cleaned the iguanas tank, fed him then cleaned the bird cages and I cleaned the other animal cages then cleaned up the extra room. Swept and mopped in there like I usually do. He also helped me clean up our living room — It looks soo much better! Cleaned off our coffee table and he cleaned up his computer desk. I finally took down all the books off our bookshelf and reorganized and put everything back neatly! Then I went into our outside storage room and dug through to try to find Christmas stuff! We’re not putting up a Christmas tree this year because 1) we don’t have room for one in our living room and 2) we’re not gonna be home for Christmas anyhow! SO I got out our door decorator.. It’s this plastic thing that covers our front door and It has penguins on it and says Happy Holidays! 🙂 Also hung a penguin doorknob hanger on our doorknob. I dug out Christmas lights too so maybe tomorrow we can see about hanging up outside Christmas lights. 😀 Gotta love the Holidays!!!

What a great Saturday It’s been! 😀 Slept in late this morning… Brad woke me up about 9:30AM I guess and I went back to sleep until after noon, lol. Then for the first time in a while we had sex and I have to say, It was great great great. 😉

Got ready and drove out to the mall! Went to Radioshack first. Brad wanted to buy something there and they asked us if we had wanted to upgrade our cellphones. We’ve had our cellphones for over 2 years now so he checked our accounts and said they have been ready for an upgrade so he showed us the Sony Ericsson and I automatically fell in love with it! We went ahead and got 2 of those.. free! We’ll have a activation charge for them on our next bill. YAY new phone! Brad’s old phone was pretty much dead and my old cellphone case had seen It’s last days, It was coming all to pieces so I am very pleased! Haven’t fiddled with my new phone yet.

We stopped at a few other places and Brad got a few other things. I went ahead and got a new cover for my new cellphone – It’s the same color cover I’ve always gotten for all my other cellphones, the shiny dark red. 😀 😀 Eventually, we left the mall then went to look @ Petsmart just to see all the animals. Awww they had 5 week old kitties in the adoption center!! SO CUTE! Little black kittens! Hehee! When we left Petsmart the sky was sooo pretty, Brad took a picture of it on his new phone. We went to Wal-Mart and got our groceries then finalllly came back home! Shew, I am worn out!

I’m starving too! About to eat my dinner and call Mom on my new phone! Have a great night!!!!

I just want to take a moment to dote on my dear husband. Even though he can be annoyingly silly and frankly quite immature and RUDE at times.. he’s a guy. He’s a great guy though. I love him lots and lots! Aww he said tonight, “Out of all the people in the world you picked me to love” AWWWWWWW. Then I said, “You picked me too” 🙂

My day consisted of: Internet, nap, reading the baby book, making up the bed, more Internet, Hubby coming home, went to store to buy a few things because Hubby wanted to make homemade salsa. Verdict: salsa was good! Went over to MIL’s to eat dinner and watch a new episode of BONES! Came home, back on Internet, Hubby went to bed and I ate a granola bar with my prenatal vitamin and voila, here I am! Very, very full! 😀

I thought today was Wednesday… and today was pretty chilly! Supposed to be that way the rest of the week I believe. Today was the first day I’ve worn a sweater since last fall I guess!

And our baby. OUR BABY IS IN MY BELLY!! I’m so thrilled to get to say that. I have a TINY TINY growing baby in me! AHHHHHHH, makes me want to cry! 🙂 Or explode with joy! Tomorrow I will be 5 weeks! If my Doc office doesn’t call back soon with my hCG results I’m gonna call them and then choose which baby Doc I want to go to and get my first appointment, WOOO!!!!!!!

I’m slacking on the blogging again. Haha.

Well, Brad’s job is just ruining him – his back, arms, knees, wrists, hands. Plus he is never happy anymore, always down even though he tries to be in high spirits around me. His job always has him angry, upset, stressed, frustrated and he comes home EVERY DAY exhausted. His way of dealing with his anger from work @ home is to act a little immature and crazy. I can definetly tell when he’s trying to handle the anger from his job by the way he acts. I was trying to be positive yesterday to him about another job but he just snapped on me. Last night we talked it out and I dunno, I just want him to be happy again. It’s really affecting us both because when he’s not happy, I’m not happy either. He said he’d talk to his boss about cutting down some on his workload, he says they are just giving him way way way too much work. I really pray his boss listens to him and gets someone to help him!! Sheesh!!!!!!!!!!!! Makes me so angry that they can’t atleast give him a partner to help him out! His boss has been “PROMISING” him a partner for a while now but did he ever? Did he ever got through with that? NOPE! Of course that just really upsets Brad… 🙁

Speaking of slacking, I have really been slacking on my exercise. I don’t think I’ve exercised in about a month.. which is bad but I’ve stayed the same weight. Yesterday I did exercise though and I plan to today as well. I’d like to get back into doing it maybe 6/7 days a week and keep going with it and I know I’ll lose lots more weight but gosh stuff always comes up – I get sick, PMS sometimes has me eating more + feeling lazy and not wanting to exercise so I’m gonna try my best. I really want to lose more weight!

Brad also has been stressing about our bills and such. We only have a few bills but my gosh, they add up to a lot! I don’t know what we could eliminate besides our cellphone bill but then I couldn’t call my Mom since we don’t have long distance on our home phone but I guess If we got rid of our cellphones we’d have to turn on long distance coz I have to talk to my Mommy!!!! I suppose we could buy a little less and cheaper groceries but we only get what we need! Ugh, I hate money and bills but don’t we all. UGH.

I just want us to be happy.

Hey everyone! Sorry I haven’t updated sooner but I just really haven’t wanted to. How was your Memorial Day weekend? What did you do???

I thought we weren’t really gonna have any plans but! Brad’s friend Kenny invited us over for a BBQ and was inviting a few other of Brad’s High School friends yay!!!! Got up early Saturday and the BBQ was at noon so we arrived right around then. Brad’s friends Kenny, Chase, Bubba and his wife + their 3 week old baby!!! BTW, the baby was so tiny and precious!!! He has a feeding tube right now since his tummy is too small as far as holding milk goes. Ate some yummy hot dogs, hamburgers, sausage! Then Brad and I got to play Kenny’s Wii!!! I was kindof nervous at first haha but we played the sports HAHA I LOVE the Wii bowling and tennis! Me and Brad had a blast with it LOL. Then a little while longer Brad got to play Wario! CRAZY, awesome game! :grinny: We didn’t stay too long after that – told everyone bye and headed off. Decided to put off grocery shopping until Sunday since we both just wanted to go home and relax.

Everything was going great until Brad told me he wanted to take a whole box of allergy pills to get high. I told him not to do it. He got pissy, threw the box and said fuck it. Oooh boy was I mad at him. WTF?!?!?! I told him I CARE ABOUT HIM AND HIS HEALTH! He was still huffy. He eventually admitted that he was being stupid. Well, YEAH. *sigh* He KNOWS how I feel about drugs/pill poppers. Saturday when we saw Brads friends wifes baby, Brad was saying how much he wanted a baby soo bad but he wants to pull crap like that????????? UGH.

Sunday we went grocery shopping and had a pretty good day. He told me that he knows I was just trying to protect him (as far as the pills go) and that he would have done the same thing if it were me. I would surely hope so!!! And then yesterday he didn’t have work and we didn’t do much.. then yesterday evening we went and ate at his Moms like usual then Brad’s friends Alex and his g/f Amanda wanted to come hang out so they came about 7:30ish and didn’t leave until 11pm lol. It was awesome having them over though!!! 😀

While taking my nap today I had an interesting dream. I can’t remember most of the dream, I just remember I was pregnant with a big belly and I felt the baby kick!! And told Brad to FEEL!! Got him to feel too and we were both so excited, I was crying! Gosh, It seemed so real. I WANT THAT BELLY!!!!!!!! – on a different note, sometime this weekend my little gerbil passed away. R.I.P Bruno..

OH and Ranee – I’ve been taking Metformin for over 6 months now and yeah, It does cause havoc with my stomach most of the time but I strive through it. If it’ll help my hormones and achieving pregnancy then I’m gonna hang on for all it’s worth!!!

Poor Brad, something always go wrong for him. :upset: Saturday I was waiting for him to get ready so we could go grocery shopping. La la, he was finally ready and so got ready to go, he opened the door and whaddya know.. his tire. Was flat. Again. FOR THE 3RD TIME. He ran over ANOTHER screw at work. Oooh boy, there are no words for how upset and enraged he was. Cussing, throwing things. I didn’t know what to say. He just about cried.
He couldn’t get ahold of his Mom and Stepdad so he got out there himself and jacked up the tire, took the tire off and plugged up the hole. Called his Grandma to come get him to take the tire to fill it back up. By the time he got back, he was a little bit calmer. I just get so.. distraught when he gets like that, so mad and upset. I just don’t know what to say or do. SO another flat tire plugged and he put that back on, got cleaned up and we headed off to get groceries. I finally told him at the store that I’m sorry that happened to him but in life we have to take the good with the bad and the bad with the good!

Well, my Uncle is the one that helps pay insurance and up-keep on my Moms house and apparently It’s getting too expensive and my family wants Mom to find an apartment. Mom loves the house but It’s got so many problems and has from the time she moved in. The yard is pretty big too and there’s no way she can take care of it. Late last year Brad’s Mom was looking into apartments around here for my Mom and said she sent my Mom an application for one of the apartments but my Mom never got it sooo I’m gonna check back into those apartments. Mom would LOVE LOVE LOVE to be closer to me and I would love for her to be closer too!! That would be so great! I really hope things pan out. My Uncle and other members of the family have agreed to pitch in money when she moves for the U-Haul, etc etc. Mom says she’s already getting excited about the idea and told me to get on it LOL. Ooo that would be so great! I could give her company whenever and we could drink coffee together and go for walks!! :grinny:

I love my Mom.. even though as far as blood goes she’s my Grandma but to me she’ll always be my Mom. I don’t know what I would do without her. She is the closest family member I have and pretty much the only family member I talk to now. Mom mentioned her eye sight is getting worse.. she’s always been blind in one eye so I can’t even imagine how that would be. I have my Aunt and Cousin but I don’t ever really talk to either of them anymore and they live in Georgia. I feel like Mom is all I have and without her, I wouldn’t have my foundation. Moms the person I go to for my ranting – espically when It’s about Brad lol. Who would I go to when Moms not around? Brads Mom? Don’t know If I could.. just wouldn’t feel right even though Brad’s Mom is awesome, just not my Mom.

Well, I’m gonna snack a little then once Brad gets home, It’s LORD OF THE RINGS ONLINE time!! Woo I love that game! SO awesome!!! :grinny: