Happy last day of 2019! Sigh.. I still didn’t keep up with blogging. Still a goal but here’s what I posted on FB about my 2019.

Last day of 2019 and what a year..

January- Started the year finally hanging our pictures on the wall after living here almost a year hah. Also began the year with a big ole baby bump and took my last bump photo.
February- Our Abigael Raine was born Feb 3rd after my water broke at home! So amazing to give birth, even as painful as it is but I have been blessed enough to have all 3 quickly. Back to newborn life! So thankful Teresa Sappington and family were here to help. Celebrated Benjamins 2nd birthday on Feb 28th.
March- Full of trying to find a new routine with the littles and more doc appointments plus mine and hubby’s birthdays! Our washer went out so we bought a new one.
April- We had a minor car accident when we got slightly side swiped. Thankfully everyone was ok and we got our car repaired.
May- Our dear ferret Echo passed away. Katie’s 11th birthday, end of her 5th grade year, and end of elementary school!
June- Brad’s work had their yearly fun free trip and we got to go to Six Flags again!
July- Shot some fireworks and took Katie for her middle school tour and meet the teachers
August- Got my nose pierced and ears gauged to 10g. Katie started middle school.
September- Bought our baby bearded dragon Yoshi! Moms 84th birthday and then 2 days later the hardest part of my life… losing mom. I love and miss you mom.
October-December- Holidays and just hanging out. Celebrated 14 years of marriage with my babe this month. Our Abbie learned within this year to sit up, pull up, got 5ish teeth and is almost ready for first steps. Ben is speaking a bit more clearly and we’re gonna start potty training real soon. I also lost the 40 pounds I gained while pregnant and made some big improvements health wise with my hypothyroidism and fight with low iron but still have a ways to go but I will get there and feel amazing again and I wanna help others do the same!

I got to experience birth and death close to me this year and it has taught me to continually grasp the good and live and breathe with an attitude of gratitude. This life is all we get so make it amazing ❤❤ I owe everything I am and ever shall be to my Heavenly Father. Thankful for my Savior Jesus Christ.

Cheers to 2020, new year, new decade!

On a different note- I wanted to post what I had started to about mom. Cathy had found mom and called me to say she was gone. I wanted to drive down there ASAP to see mom before they took her away for cremation so I called Brad at work and told him and he said he would try to come home. I talked to Cathy again and… they had already taken mom!!! WTF! My heart sank. I didn’t even have time to get down there. Told hubby nevermind. Cathy said there was no reason to come down that day since mom was already taken to the cremation place but she wouldn’t be done till we went to pay the next day. I drove down the next day and went with Cathy to pay for mom’s cremation and I could have seen her then.. but she had already been gone over 24 hours and I wasn’t sure I wanted to see her like that. She was cremated on Friday the 13th. Everything from then for a bit was just weird – because she wasn’t there anymore. My bio mom came down for a visit and to help go through mom’s stuff but let’s say it didn’t turn out like we thought. I ended up with some of mom’s most valuable stuff, like her purse and her lock box papers- which I will always cherish. My aunt and I ended up ordering special necklaces to keep a teeny tiny portion of mom’s ashes in. I still don’t know what to say about it all, except that it sucks and will never be the same.

I look forward to 2020 and hope for lots of positive changes to come my way!