I used to post about my life on here … since 2005.

I wanted to document more since 2020 but life got busy, as it is and continues to be.

I loved posting on here but then so much altered my reality, my perspective, and has caused me to be reluctant to share but I’m trying to get back to ME.

Having someone you loved with everything you had walk away is beyond soul crushing. I was barely holding on. 2022 brought so many insane things that I just fought to grasp it. In 2022, I juggled all my children, including feeding preemie twins alone– with my oldest daughters help some. I’m not complaining, I just never imagined life would be this way. I had to use all my energy just to survive and then I still had to make tons of decisions while making sure all 5 of my babies were okay.

My brain was so overloaded. I found rest a little once I had my own place in late 2022. Taking care of twin babies mostly solo will take up most of your time and energy. I hate that I didn’t have the umpf to post here about all the details, like I usually would. Memories not written down. I don’t feel the same about a lot of things anymore.

Fast forward and life is so different now. 2020 VS 2026 is nothing like what my life was. Life can be so, so cruel but life can be beautiful too. I’ve experienced both sides and I’m still thankful for everything Heavenly Father has given me.