I think Brad and I are gonna go to the mall this weekend! :grinny: If we do I’ll go and get my eyebrows done because boy do they need it!!! I remember when Brad first got his truck that he had his wreck in – we would go to the mall almost EVERY weekend. Now? We only got MAYBE once a month, MAYBE. He’s not too keen on driving long distances hardly ever. I hope he can shake that and we can go back to the way It was. I liked going out like that every weekend instead of just going to the grocery store every weekend.

So tonight we’re gonna babysit Brad’s 3 younger sisters while Brad’s Mom & Stepdad go to some celebration for Brad’s Stepdad. I cannot believe Saturday will be the 1st of September! Before you know it, the holidays will be coming up and whenever those come around, It always goes by fast. Then comes New Years and 2008?!?!? 2008. Wow. I remember everyone talking about the big scare about going into 2000. Almost 8 years have went by.. just seems impossible!

One thing I love about my Mom.. she is the person I call whenever something is pissing me off or someone. In fact I think as soon as I get a few things done, think I’m gonna call her and rant about this and that :grinny: :grinny: :grinny: I love my Mom. Have a great day!!!!

I couldn’t stop crying this morning. Thinking about how everything used to be, living back home with Mom – the memories in that house. THE MEMORIES WITH MY FRIENDS, OMG! I truly and really have been so isolated these past few years that I am so anxious around people these days. I used to be this really, really, silly, goofy full of spunk person but since I haven’t had any friend interaction in such a long time my sense of humor is different than It used to be. I’ve always been pretty mature for my age and now I think It’s even moreso. I miss how me and my best friend Allen would just be each other’s company for the whole entire summer day. Now I don’t even get to see him anymore. :blink: Brad is my best friend but the thing is all he wants to do when he gets home is get a shower and play his computer game. :blank: I’ve tried talking him into doing things, he says right now It’s too hot to go outside and do stuff, which, I agree. I got him to go to the store with me the other day to just look around. It’s different though.. he’s my husband, yenno? I really need a close girl friend.

I was also thinking about Mom. How she raised me as her own. Took me in and did so much for me. I think about how once Brad and I have a baby.. she probably won’t be here to be in the delivery room with us. I would want her there, too because she means the WORLD to me. I want her close so she can see our baby. And thinking about her not just made me cry even more this morning. I know my Mom and I didn’t get along for quite a long time but once we got on good terms (which, we still are) It’s been awesome and I just miss her now that she lives 4-5 hours away. Can’t just go over on the weekend anytime we want. Mom really, really is my angel. Her and my Grandpa (RIP Gpa) both, I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for their big hearts.

WOOOOOOOOOO. Our weather has been FAR too hot lately but we are finally starting to cool off a tiny! We might even get some rain sometime this week! It’s been like 110 or so some days lately so It is NICE to look @ the temp right now and say It’s 80!!!!! Yenno I LOVE summer but not when It’s THAT hot! Now I can’t wait for fall.. and around 70-75 degree weather so I can open my windows and let some fresh air in. I LOVED doing that last year – keeping my windows up during the day. Was really lovely.

Of course this weekend is Labor Day weekend! And Brad is off work Monday! He is of course excited about that! Maybe we’ll do something to celebrate Labor Day, that would be cool.

Not much of a post today… don’t have too much going on. Sitting here finishing my cereal then I need to go wash my hair! I miss Mom. (she moved away) It would just be nice to go over to her place and talk to her but I can’t.
Thanks for your comments on my last entry. I don’t think I should make an effort If they won’t or don’t.

Interesting weekend.. Friday evening Brad wanted to go hang out with some people we know and I didn’t want to, really. The girl, Megan, used to be my best friend in High School. She’s now married. Anyhow, they NEVER want to come see us. They were living 2 HOURS away from us and we actually took a trip out to spend the night with them last year. We asked again and again for them to come see us. They kept asking us to come back. I JUST DON’T CONSIDER THAT FRIENDSHIP. Isn’t it a 2 way street on both parts? COME ON NOW. Well now they live close to the town where my Mom was living – which is about an hour away from our house. I tried to convince Brad that THEY WON’T come see us. I KNOW THEY WON’T. He’s like, “Maybe they will now that we live in the apartment” HAHAH. We were living in the apartment last year and they still didn’t come see us. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I just want some friends who want to come HANG OUT WITH ME TOO YENNO. It just pisses me off 10000000%. We wound up going though. *sigh* I didn’t say anything, really. Just sat and watched the guys play video games. Finally got my Buffy Season 3 DVD set back after… almost 2 years I think since Megan borrowed it? Am I being too harsh? I don’t think I am. I THINK FRIENDS SHOULD VISIT EACH OTHER, not just ONE!!!! Whatever. I don’t have friends anymore, everyone is doing their own thing. People don’t call, people don’t visit. @#$@#$@#$!!! And the ones that have the Internet don’t even stay in contact ONLINE besides the ONCE IN A MONTH “hey”! :pissed:

*sigh* Atleast I have Brad. I won’t be going back to their house. If Brad wants to go, bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I won’t do it. I’m too stubborn and think that that’s how FRIENDSHIP is supposed to be. So we left their house a little after 9pm since we were starving (hadn’t eaten dinner) so we went to the new KFC/Taco Bell there in that town. Got our usual Taco Bell order – burritos + cinnamon twists THEN also got a large KFC mashed potato + gravy. OMG so good. I looove their mashed potatoes. We ate then went to Sonic and Brad got me a cookie dough blast!!! :grinny: Headed back home and I think Brad kept dozing off.. he said he didn’t but It looked like it to me, he said his eyes were just getting “blurry” (he had his glasses on instead of his contacts) but he kept almost going off the road and was scaring the shit out of me. That’s one reason I can’t wait to get to driving is so I can drive us places at night coz most of the time Brad dozes off. He’s done it many many times before. Scary as crap!!! We made it back home then Brad’s cousin came over that night and stayed the weekend with us. Went grocery shopping Saturday and the rest of the weekend was spent playing games, doing laundry and sitting around haha. Went over to Brad’s Moms last night & ate supper + watched The 4400 and The Deadzone.

Christine: sweet tea is just regular tea with sugar :grinny: I CANNOT for the life of me drink just PLAIN tea. EWWWWW. I think it’s really gross haha.

Janet: No, getting my eyebrow pierced did not hurt =) But I’m high tolerant on pain so yeah lol.

Oh and thanks for the comments everyone!!!! :] Have a great Monday!

Here we are! Friday once again! What are you guys gonna do this weekend? Anything exciting? As far as my plans? Well, no idea but I’m hoping to actually go out (besides the grocery store) and do something fun! I kindof doubt it but I guess we’ll seeeee.

Today is my cleaning day — about to get up, clean the animal cages, sweep + mop in there, clean the bathroom, sweep sweep there and in the hall. Tidy up the bedroom then move into the kitchen and make my way finally to the living room and the last thing I do is clean the guinea piggie cage! :grinny:

Damn, I REALLY need to get my eyebrows done again. Their getting thick and bushy, ewwww. And I need to wash my hair and shave today as well. Get all fresh and clean clean clean!!! Tonight we’ll probably order from somewhere, usually McDonalds. I get sweet tea and the chicken nuggets meal. Blah blah, I’m just blabbering on, lol.

Guess I’ll go get started with the cleaning so I can get it over with! Have a great Friday!!!!!!!!!

I’m SO happy that Terry Fator won America’s Got Talent last night! Yay yay yay!!!! He has an amazing talent hehe and I laughed at Kermit and the CHICKENS hahaha!!! :teeth: I think Cas is a good singer but look at Terry’s talent! :grinny: Now tonight is the top 5 of Last Comic Standing! Hmmm. I’m thinking Lavelle is gonna win.

I just turned the air off because I am freezing! Oh, Brad’s Mom got this older man to come and mow their lawn so she got him to come over and cut ours today! He did an EXCELLENT job! Our lawn looks real nice now. Know what I really miss? Just being outside in general. I don’t spend hardly any time outside anymore and I’ve always been an outside gal. Going for walks, exploring woods and playing in creeks! That was me. Brad doesn’t like to go outside and I don’t really like to be by myself. Sometimes I just sit here, stare outside at the beautiful day and really miss being out there. Would love to have a nature-type job.

Hmm, I hope we actually do something exciting this weekend. Usually Brad’s cousin comes over, they play Diablo on their laptops and I play Lord of the Rings Online and.. yeah. I’d like to actually go out and do something! Hopefully we will. I love to sit home and game but It’s also nice to go out sometimes! :thumbsup: Well, off to do a few things, have a great day!

I’m sitting here and have just finished a bowl of chocolate Lucky Charms! The Wal-Mart we go to NEVER has CoCo Puffs so I went for the chocolate Lucky Charms, actually really good.

I reallly need to see what I’m gonna do about making money online. We NEED more money. I could go ahead and sign up for different things right now and just use Brad’s Paypal for now or I could get Brad’s Mom to take me to get an ID made then get my own bank account set up. I need an ID anyway. A friend of mine suggested I open up another site and earn from that site.

How is everyone’s week going so far? Brad was surprisingly cheery yesterday but I was glad to see him like that. Usually on work days he’s not that upbeat. It’s actually only 91 degrees here right now!!! Better than 110! It seems to be a little cooler at night too which is awesome, awesome. Eh, this entry was kindof ‘here and there’ but atleast I blogged =)

Tonight I get to see who wins America’s Got Talent! I actually really like the Ventriloquist guy!! :grinny:

Anyone like the band Maroon 5? I really, really, really love their CD Songs About Jane and have been wanting their new CD It Won’t Be Soon Before Long so I got it this weekend! Still “adjusting” to the CD and so far I like 2-3 songs. Here a few lyric lines from the songs that I really like on the new CD! Check it out..

i still don’t have a reason and you don’t have the time and it really makes me wonder if i ever gave a fuck about you – makes me wonder

if you needed love well then ask for love, could have given love now i’m taking love now it’s not my fault cause you both deserve what is coming now so don’t say a word – wake up call caught you in morning with another one in my bed, don’t you care about me anymore? don’t you care about me? i don’t think so. six foot tall came without a warning so i had to shoot him dead, he won’t come around here anymore, come around here anymore i don’t think so – wake up call

every night you cry yourself to sleep thinking why does this happen to me why does every moment have to be so hard – hard to believe that it’s not over tonight just give me one more chance to make it right, i may not make it through the night, i won’t go home without you – won’t go home without you

As far as our air conditioner? still no idea. :yell: brad’s mom did go out and buy us a new fan, which was very nice of her so set that up last night and was glad to have some air in the bedroom! Our other fan started making weird noises Sunday and was getting extremely hot sooo yeah.

OMG, WTF.

Brad, me and his cousin went to the trailor a few weeks ago (where we used to live) to get some more of our things that we left over there and we mainly went for our AIR CONDITIONER. We get there and whaddya know, the air conditioner is GONE. No where to be found. The only people that have a key to that place is Brad and his Dad. If his Dad wanted to use it, he could have called us up and asked. Who else could have gotten it?!?! GRRRR. So, today our fan in the bedroom pretty much died and there is NO WAY I can go to sleep back there without fan/air. Brad calls his Mom and asks her to call people and ask about our air conditioner (brad’s family) and well, Brad’s Mom called Brad’s Stepmom and eventually she asked Brad’s Dad about it and he said he has no clue.

W.T.F?!!!!!! Ooo that pisses me off. :yell: :yell: :yell: How damn lousy is that?! I know he’s lieing. I want our damn air conditioner back! Brad and I even thought he might have got it and sold it on Ebay! Who knows. I think Brad’s Mom was gonna see about getting us a new one BUT I DON’T WANT A NEW ONE. I want to know WHAT THE HELL happened to my damn air conditioner and If they have it, I WANT IT BACK!!!!!!! :yell:

sooo new layout! so far i like it. i think haha.

course it’s under MAJOR CONSTRUCTION. still have a lot do but i’m a bit buzzed and am now exhausted. both brad and his cousin are OUT right now. brad in his recliner with his laptop in his lap with his hand still on his mouse LMAO and his cousin sitting up on the couch, rofl. ill add more to this later todaay, gonna drag my hubby to bed! :loopy:

edit @ 10:04PM: thank you for the comments! :] still working majorly on the layout but gonna quit for tonight, surf the web a bit then play some LORD OF THE RINGS ONLINE!! have a great niiiight!!!