edit: Ooooh! ALSO – HAPPY 5 YEAR WEDDING ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND MY LOVE! Wow 5 years. I can’t believe it but I look forward to 5 more and 5 more and… so on! Heh.

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I’m pretty excited! I’ve found a Doctor that is helping me with my health situation and I feel… HOPEFUL. Wow. I’m so ready to feel how I used to! MOST OF ALL — I CANNOT WAIT TO RUN AGAIN!!!!! I told Brad this and he said, “You can, do it anyway!” HA. He doesn’t understand that in my situation I am not supposed to push myself but months ago I WAS STILL pushing myself to do hard exercise when I really, really, really shouldn’t of been doing so but many lessons have been learned this year. That’s for sure.

I’m ready for a new year, a new start, a chance to eventually get back to full energy and to once again have a clear mind and to be able to fully concentrate and focus. The greatest thing for me to feel again is my full energy, a nice balanced appetite where I 100% enjoy EVERY SINGLE bite I put into my mouth and yes, I used to be that way!!! I could eat a nice meal and be able to hold out for a few hours before I was hungry again but now I have to eat every 2 hours just to function. I’m ready to lose this ~20 pounds that I’ve put on and get back to being as slim and trim as I was and KEEPING it that way! The idea of getting back to that mindset and level of fitness thrills me to no end!!!!!!!!!!!

I will get there. I will, I will. I know it and believe it with everything I am. I trust that my Heavenly Father will guide me in the right direction.

In other news, I cannot WAIT TO WATCH new episodes of The Office (hour long Christmas speeeecial!), BONES!!!!!!!! (supposed to be SUPER DUPER GOOD), and of course FRINGE (I’m sooooo glad they got Olivia back to where she’s supposed to be!)

Have a great Friday night! :bye: :love: