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Posted October 2, 2007

This whole trying to conceive thing is so draining. Espically when I HOPE HOPE HOPE for it to happen and then each time It doesn’t. It’s now been over a year. Coming up close to being a year since I started my medicine. I go back to the Doctor October 30th so maybe she can figure something else out. I dunno.. sometimes I just want to throw the towel in and say forget it but then again I try to hang on to hope.

In other bad news, yesterday I got a message on Myspace from a girl I know from High School asking If I had heard about my best friend Krista’s daughter. I told her no? Last time I saw Krista and her son + daughter was when Mom moved away in August. Apparently, Anna (her daughter) was taking a nap, vomited and choked to death.. I feel so heavy hearted for her. Anna was a beauuuuutiful little baby. Had the cutest little face. Gosh and Krista was big time crazy about her kids so I can’t even imagine how she is feeling right now. I want to call her but I am no good with words when It comes to situations like these. I might attempt even just to show her I care and that I’m there for her even though I just won’t know what to say. I was talking to Mom about it and Mom lost a son – Jimmy when he was only 19 hours old and she said that there isn’t a day that goes by that she doesn’t think of him.