It has been a good Wednesday! I have been trying to get to bed earlier the last 2 nights, but the earliest I’ve got so far is 10:40pm. Gonna push for earlier tonight, but we’ll see. I’m trying!!!

This morning I finished my college discussions and turned them in, wohooo! Read from my email that my supplements got on the UPS truck at 8AM, so just had to wait, wait, wait. Katie eventually went down for nap, I did some time on the exercise bike & watched my OTH rerun. Had about 10 minutes left of the episode when I got off the bike, so I went and got a shower to shave + wash my hair, then fixed my lunch, finished up the OTH episode and fixed my hair. Got Katie up, fed her a snack, and fixed my protein probiotic shake for a snack later. My church friend was coming over at 4PM and she did! I LOVED having her over! She had a little girl around Katie’s age, and a little boy who is like… 5 months I think. We just chatted, while the girls played.

AND THEN MY PACKAGE ARRIVED, WOHOOO! She stayed for a bit longer then had to go. It was fun!!! It was nice to just talk. Here’s a random pic of Katie I took after they left, lol.

I opened my package after she left & had my protein shake…

There are the supplements my holistic Doc recommended to me. NOT cheap, but totally worth it to heal my body!!!! I know it will work, because I ordered the recycler not long ago, and I can already tell a diff SO no telling how awesome I will feel taking ALL the right things. The X-FLM is to balance my immune system, you can’t just take the X-FLM – you have to know “which side” of your immune system needs balancing. It’s a complicated thing! My holistic Doc helped me figure it out. The Oxicell is cream to apply to my skin to help with antioxidants & other good things. Ultra-D is a SPECIAL vitamin D mix with other goodies in it – that is made especially for people with autoimmune problems. Of course the recycler is to help “recycle” antioxidants in the body and to use them better. I’ll keep ya up to date with how it’s going.

Soooooo, the rest of the day passed by quickly of course. Ate dinner, watched the latest Biggest Loser, and now we’re getting a storm!

Gonna settle down to study my scriptures then go to bed. I’m so blessed. Thank you Heavenly Father for another day!!! I pray for you. I pray for me. I pray for this world. I pray for peace, for myself and others. You are loved… =)

I LOVE PANDORA!!! I am loving the Savage Garden Radio, since it plays a mix of all the stuff that I like. How has your Tuesday been? It’s been pretty gloomy all day, with some rain here and there. Gonna storm tomorrow supposedly. Read a really long short story for college this morning, but I enjoyed it. I got one of my discussions done, and started on another that I will finish tomorrow. Got to talk to my church co-teacher on Facebook for a bit earlier today! Then another sister from church called me this evening & so I was thrilled to talk to both of them.

I’m excited that I was NOT as sleepy today, since I went to bed at 10:40pm, and am gonna try for even earlier tonight. The melatonin didn’t really do anything, so I’m gonna try 3mg and if still nothing then I will prob stick to 3mg for a bit to see what happens. It may not help with “deep sleep”, but I’m trying anyway. I got on the exercise bike when Katie went down for her nap and did that for… 30 minutes? It was nice!

That’s all I got! We’re gonna watch the newest WALKING DEAD after Katie goes to bed then I will get ready for bed. MY SUPPLEMENTS ARRIVE TOMORROW!!!!!!! ;D I’m just so excited to see how I’m gonna feel in a month, in 2 months! I know my health is just going to continue to improve. SO THANKFULLLLL! =)

Gah, I am going to bed earlier tonight. Only got 4 hours of sleep Saturday night, and didn’t get enough last night so I have been struggling a bit today with almost dozing off this morning and later this afternoon. Happy Monday! Just so you know – I LOVE MY NEW I-PAD SO MUCH!!!!!! I took it around the house with me and played Pandora throughout the day. <3

This morning I started reading on my college material, but struggled because I was almost dozing off. I went online and ordered a few health goodies for my health that my holistic Doctor said that is important to my healing plan. I already ordered one of them, but went ahead and got a 2nd bottle when I run out of the current one. I’m excited to get it AND it should come WEDNESDAY! Really fast, woot. I got to watch my OTH rerun on my i-pad… lovely! Once again the rerun made me cry. It was the episode where Nathan is in a basketball game, gets pushed by an opposite team player, his wound starts bleeding, he gets stitched back up, plays the rest of the game in Lucas’ jersey, makes the WINNING SHOT while looking at the guy who pushed him…. I cried! I love that show so much. So much deep life meaning behind their episodes. Ummm after Katie got up from her & nap and was watching a LeapFrog cartoon – I tried to read more of my college work. Got most of it done! Brad came home eventually, me & Katie ate dinner, then we headed out so Brad could buy an i-pad case like mine, then stopped by Wal-Mart for a few things.

Posting this, an entry on my LJ, browsing Facebook, a few bloggies, then off to study scriptures and GO TO SLEEP! I’m soooooo ready. Can I PLEASE just have a night of DEEP sleep? I bought some melatonin and am gonna take 2mg to see what happens. *crosses fingers*

I’m so happy. I can tell that my health is improving bit by bit and I’m just so overwhelmed with joy that it’s finally starting to happen….. the good. It’s been a long time and I am so ready to be as focused and as happy as I once was. Know how I can tell in one way? Church talks are moving me to tears again, like this morning. I love it. There are various other things as well – my appetite is improving a lot, I’m able to eat “meals” and go a few hours inbetween and not “feel” bad, which made me want to eat. For most of the time my health has been downhill – I’ve felt a “tightening” on the left side of my neck.. something tied into the autoimmune/thyroid mess, but since i’ve started all the goody vitamins/supplements, my neck rarely feels tight. Also, I have been feeling a lot more AT EASE, relaxed, not so uptight, and calm. It’s lovely. Just gotta rest, eat enough, exercise a little, enjoy life, and then when I feel much better I can get back into the exercise I REALLY wanna do, but I must be patient. It’s hard!!! I wanna run and train hardcore, but my body is not equipped to handle that right now. The time will come, I hope sooner, rather than later. I will be ready. =)

Anyway!!! Yea, we were up super late, lol. I got my highlights done in my hair – thx to my lovie. He always helps me with my hair. Heh. We only got….. 4ish hours of sleep? Got up, ready for church, and Katie looked SUPER CUTE in her new pink outfit, with her new black dress shoes. Come to find out the new dress shoes are a little big on her feet, so she had a hard time walking in them, lol. I’ll put socks on her next Sunday to help fill up that extra room a bit better. I had a wonderful time at church. I’m so thankful for my Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ, and the Atonement. As I mentioned above, I was so moved by the talk one of the brethren gave this morning. He was talking about how Jesus wasn’t a big-shot business man, he was forsaken by his friends, and thrown into the arms of his enemies. He suffered so much because he loved us. How blessed are we? I went to teach my class of kids and had a really good time, actually! My co-teacher really gives me the relief I need to be able to teach. The last hour was fun, since the kids got to do a few group activities. I talked to my co-teacher a little after church then we headed home. Katie was DEFFO ready for nap. Also, I took all but a few books and a few toys away from her. The last few weeks she has been stepping on, tearing up, and not taking care of her toys. I’m gonna take them away for a bit to get her to understand that I’m not gonna put up with her ruining her toys. I fed her lunch then she went down for nap. Brad & I fiddled with our i-pads then spent some ALONE TIME together in bed… doing adult things! Hah. Next up – the newest episode of ONE! TREE! HILL! Awesome… Lucas came back for a brief, few scenes. I miss him and Peyton on the show still!!!!

The rest of the day = finished and turned in my college paper, ate dinner, watched the latest Fringe (and they won’t be back for FOUR WEEKS!), and Brad put Katie to bed. Just wanna chill out, mess with Facebook & Tumblr then get some SERIOUS SLEEEEEPZ! Hope everyone has an awesome night!

WHAT A GREAT DAY !!!!!!!!! I just want to say I am SO THANKFUL.

Ok, I woke up about 7AM, went to pee, weigh myself, and went back to sleep until 9AM & got up, got Katie up, etc. Cleaned house, Brad *eventually* got up, haha. After Katie had lunch, I got my food/snacks packed, we dropped Katie off @ Mom’s and headed to the mall to get our eye exams & such. I ate my lunch on the way there. We get to the mall, find the vision place and they are pretty swamped. Talk with them and decided to make an appointment for next Saturday. So…… we had the whole day at the mall! Well, guess what? EARLY BIRTHDAY PRESENTS! Heh.

Goodies: New pair of ASICS running shoes! My other ones were literally getting holes. I’ve worn them almost every day for 2 years. The lady also recommended insoles, so I got those and then I got low-cut socks for a buy one, get one free deal so yes please, since all my socks have holes in them! I headed to American Eagle and got 2 shirts for $20, then went to Aeropostale to browse and got a tiny bottle of their “Promise Me” perfume that smells LOVELY. Umm, next up was a children’s store to look for Katie dress shoes. Yeaa.. bit overpriced, so I continued on. Brad was off browsing stores and went to get something to eat at the food court (Subway). We met back up and I went to the bathroom, switched into one of my new shirts, cause I was in a long sleeve to begin with and it was HOT in the mall so felt much better. I also changed into my new pair of socks & ate my Larabar! I wore my new shoes after I bought them!! ;D Our last stop was Claire’s! Brad sat outside the store in a chair while I browsed. I wanted a new purse and wallet & the one I got is like a mini-satchel purse – LOVE IT and it has the matching wallet. SQUEEE. Also!!!!!!!! Got a buy 2 pair of earrings, get one free deal so YES! Got 3 new pair of hoop earrings, including a white pair with diamonds that are HEART SHAPED = LOVE. Brad went to GNC while I was in Claire’s and was devouring a protein bar when I came out, lol. Oh, and we DID get new black dress shoes for Katie! Paid $20 for them, but that’s like the cheapest we could find. YAY. OMG, i saw some ADORABLE dresses that I wanted to get her!

We left the mall and headed to MICROCENTER! You see, I’ve been wanting a smaller laptop so I could go outside with Katie & let her play while I did school work. I looked at a NICE Sony smaller laptop, but then we went looking around and looked at the Apple products. Brad was drawn to the I-Pad 2. I was thinking about getting the Sony laptop – AT FIRST, but then once I played with the I-Pad 2 a bit, I was hooked as well, lol. I got a white one & brad got the black. We both got cases – I got a nice red one! I wanted a keyboard, so we went to the look at wireless keyboards… that were pretty expensive, then this guy comes up to us and tells us about the cute little bluetooth keyboards for the I-Pads! WOOT!!! Deffo a birthday super spending, but worth it. We both LOVE THE I-PADS! It was getting late….. we still had to stp by Wal-Mart to get pull-ups & my TRUvia sweetner! We got those and quickly looked at the (EXPENSIVE) I-Pad accessories. Went to pick Katie up, brought her home for a bath & bed, got all the stuff put away, our I-Pads out and etc. I ate a late dinner then Brad put highlights in my hair! I’m still letting it sit in my hair now. We’ll see how it turns out, lol.

I still have to study the church lesson for the kiddos tomorrow, get a shower, washed out my hair, & also tumblr & more fiddling with my I-Pad….. yea, it’s gonna be super late when we get to bed!

SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Short update –
It was warm this morning, but the wind picked up and the temps dropped as the day went on.
Umm we went out this evening for shopping! Brad got some new cologne, a weight set, and a few other misc things. I got Katie new shoes, a shorts + shirt set, plus a top and skirt. My excitement was over some new virgin coconut oil, lol.

Pretty average day! I’m getting sleepy and just wanna hang out and go to bed! We’re going to the mall tomorrow to get our eyes examined and Brad’s gonna look into getting new glasses and contacts. Mom said she’ll watch Katie for us! Also, gonna look for Katie some new church/dressy shoes andddddd who knows what else! I’d really like a smaller laptop so I could go outside and work on on my college while Katie plays, especially with spring and summer coming up! Guess we’ll see.

Have a good night!

TODAY WAS EPIC !!!!!!!!!! =) First, I just wanna say I LOVE DAUGHTRY’S NEW ALBUM!!! “but I’m starting to believe that this could be the start of something good… everyone knows life has its ups and downs, one day your on top of the world and one day you’re a clown, well i’ve been both enough to know that you don’t wanna get in the way when it’s working out.. the way that it is right now, you see my heart, i wear it on my sleeve cause I, just can’t hide it anymore.. I know that it’s gonna take some time, I’ve got to admit that the thought has crossed my mind and this might end up like it should and I’m gonna say what I need to say and hope to God that it don’t scare you away, I don’t wanna be misunderstood…” Sorry for the lyric overload but I LOVE HIM! :]

OK, so this morning I did college work. Surprise, right??? =) Totally not. Before I cooked Katie’s lunch, I went into the kitchen and tried out my coconut pancakes! I didn’t know how many the recipe would make, but in the end I wound up with 12!! They turned out well, YESSSS!! I fed Katie and she went down for nap.. did about 10 minutes on the exercise bike, while starting my OTH rerun!! I wasn’t really hungry so I skipped my usual lunch today. Went to take my hot bath, wash my hair, and watch the rest of the episode. I LOVE ONE TREE HILL SO MUCH!!! I have cried watching the rerun episodes for the last 4-5 episodes, lol. I’m falling in love with the show even more than I was before & I love the new episodes too! EEEEE! Got out & let my hair dry for a bit then went to dry / style it, then got Katie up, fed her a snack and we……. HEADED TO THE PARK! I drank my protein shake before we left so I’d have FUEL! Katie had a blast, of course. We stayed… about an hour and a half. I had to PEE so badly at 5pm, so we went to the restroom at the park then I loaded her in the stroller – fit, crying, and all. We headed back and when we got closer to home, I let her out to walk with me to burn off more of her energy. We got home and she pouted some more, lol. Today was the warmest day we’ve had in a long, long time! It got up to 78 I think??! GAAAAAAH, it was so pretty and I LOVED EVERY SECOND that I was outside. I have truly and honestly been waiting for a warm, pretty day like this for so long. I’m so thankful for this day and for all the BEAUTY of nature that Heavenly Father has created!!!

After we got home I went to work on getting her dinner and mine ready. Oh, and my Mom called me on the way home and said that she was going to the bingo game her apartment has every once in a while, and to just come on to that building. I’ve been to one before last year. I ate dinner, left, and walked over to bingo! I wasn’t gonna play, but the lady there insisted, lol. Mom won 2 prizes and Cathy got one! We went back to Mom’s and hung out until after 9pm. Great time! =) I let my Mom and Aunt try out my coconut bread and pancake, lol. I ate half a piece of my bread on the way home.

I was worried my body would feel drained/tired/blah after all the walking I’ve done today, but NOPE. I actually feel good tonight. I know I’m getting better and I AM BEYOND HAPPY ABOUT IT!!! I came home, talked to Brad & went to study my scriptures a bit. Here I am… trying to update my stuff before bed. Gonna browse Facebook and Tumblr! Much love to you all <3

I am so pleased at how my new food plan is going !!!!!!! I had a few pieces of my coconut bread today and it was so good. Nothing real special happened today. I was feeling pretty tired earlier, but now I feel a bit more alert, yet still a little tired. Hoping I get my GREAT sleep back soon.

I just want everyone to know how beautiful they are. I just want to inspire people to make better changes in their lives mentally, physically, spiritually. To look at issues or fears that have been holding them back. I know I have been evaluating my own situations lately. I still have a lot of fears that I need to conquer, and I’m getting there. I want others to get there too. There is always the first step of recognizing and then starting the process of trying. Trying makes all the difference.

I’m so thankful, grateful, and blessed for my Heavenly Father and The Gospel. I have learned so much the last few years. I have been in my own darkness since 2010, but finally the little beams of light have been trying to shine through…. I’m ready for that BRIGHT SUNSHINE. My church friend (in Alabama) calls me Sunshine. I love her and miss her sooooo much. I want to own up to that nickname again. It’s just been hard because of everything that has happened, but I’m fighting to get my own light to shine again. I’ll keep fighting. My health means everything, Heavenly Father & The Gospel mean everything, my family means everything, and inspiring & helping people mean everything to me.

One day at a time, I’m returning to that strong foundation I had built all of 2009 and early 2010. Know that we are all worthy of great things, but we have to transform, we have to try. =) Goodnight.

Quick entry because we went to bed super late last night and am about to head straight to bed after I post this! Rundown of the day: Instead of going back to sleep after Brad went to work, I knew I had to play catch-up on my college reading, since we spent the day out and about on Monday soooooo I got Katie up, fed, and etc then started my reading, reading, reading allllll morning. Katie went down for nap, I did a bit of exercise with the Wii Active then on the bike for just a little while starting my OTH rerun! Fixed lunch, got a hot bath & watched the rest of the eppy. Katie got back up & I started mixing my stuff together for……. COCONUT BREAD! Yay! I got that in the oven and Katie set up with a movie then went to fix/style my hair, then onto fold a load of laundry that I didn’t get to fold yesterday. SHEW! Beep beep – the bread was done!

It’s like coconut cornbread! Gluten-free, lower carb, good amount of protein and fiber. AWESOMESAUCEEEE. I finally sat back down to fiddle online and eventually Brad came home and I continued reading between chatting with people and looking at other sites. Multi-tasking FTW!!! Ummmm, by the time all that was done – it was time to get up again and fix mine and Katie’s dinner. I sat down at 7pm to eat and then Brad started playing one of the new Wii games and Katie sat and watched. Brad gave Katie a bath and put her to bed, while I went to study my scriptures for a bit. I was starving, so I ate a small piece of my bread with some warm almond milk…. yum.

We watched the latest eppy of THE WALKING DEAD! AAAAAH SO GOOD. Excellent. Can’t wait for next week, wooo. I’m really hoping for some good sleep. *crosses fingers* That was my busy day! Got assignments to start tomorrow morning and hope to get a good bit accomplished. I’m so happy with the way my bread turned out! Gonna have some for a snack tomorrow with some almond butter. Hope everyone has an awesome night. Remember to be thankful & know that each day we get is a gift. Your life is a gift. Let nothing hold you back from becoming the best version of YOU! Heavenly Father loves you. =)

OMG. We just got home not long ago – what a WONDERFUL evening we’ve had as a family!!! First, we went to WHOLE FOODS, so I could buy coconut flour & a few other things to make: coconut flour pancakes & coconut bread… YUM. We also bought sushi to share for dinner later! <3 Headed out to the MALL!

We went on our own little shopping spree pretty much, but we hardly ever do that so it was SUPER AWESOME. I went and got my haircut and eyebrows waxed! It took forever, but it was the same awesome lady who did my eyebrows last time and we actually both are into health stuff! I LOVE HER. She’s gorgeous too. She did a fantastic job on my hair and eyebrows. I also bought some glossing cream and wax pomade. She didn’t wash my hair, but did a little styling with her tiny straightener & some wax pomade (THAT SMELLS WONDERFUL!!!) and so I had a blast getting that done. Brad bought 3 Wii cheaper Wii games, I bought “Be Enchanted” lotion from Bath & Body Works! Got new heart earrings & Brad bought me…….

A NEW ENGAGEMENT RING! He’s always wanted to buy me a bigger one and I love it soooooooooo much!!!! <333 Umm what else? Brad made the mistake of letting Katie out of her stroller while I was getting my hair/eyebrows done and then she had to go back in – oooooooh big fit. We went to the food court to sit down and eat our SUSHIIIIII! I fed Katie yogurt and apple & she loved it! Stopped by GNC and got liquid multi-vitamin and liquid calcium/magnesium/vitamin D, since my hairdresser recommended the calcium combo to take before bed – she said it really helped her sleep AND energy levels! It was getting way late, but wanted to run by Wal-Mart to get a few more things. Got a loaf pan for my coconut bread, plus a few new clothes for Katie! We really need to buy her a new pair of regular & church shoes, but we couldn’t find her size, bah!!!!!! That’s usually how it goes. Brad finally got what he wanted… an airsoft gun set for safety – he’s in heaven lol. I got hair dye! I’m gonna try dark blonde and see what happens, in fact – it’s in my hair right now, and i’ve got a bit more time before I go wash it out… dun dun dun. Then, tomorrow I’m gonna add frost highlights! :]

I know Katie had a blast too.. she did so well overall, except for the fit because she didn’t want back in the stroller haha. OH, and while we were in Sears, there was a woman with 3 kids and one of them was in a wheelchair & I heard her say, “Can I get some help her? My daughter is throwing up” Brad goes to try to find someone and then an employee comes over and… doesn’t.. do anything????! Brad goes down the escalator and to the bathroom to get her a whole roll of paper towels. While he was gone, all the employee could find was the little wipes….. yea, that’s not gonna get it. Brad comes back and she thanks him over and over. Brad is such a great person. I almost cried because of what he did for that lady.. he didn’t have to go all the way to the lower level to the bathroom, but he did. <333 I love him so much.

I can’t believe it’s almost midnight! YIKES. I’ve gotta buckle down tomorrow and get started on my college stuff for the week. Also have laundry to fold and put away, so Tuesday will be a busy one! Off to wash my dye out and see what it looks like, eeek!!! I’m so very thankful, grateful, and blessed for everything Heavenly Father has granted me and for days like this! <3