NEW SMILIES!!! :luv:

Last night we watched the movie Ultraviolet and wow, that was a big waste of time! There was just no interest in it for me. Pffft. :down: I got up this morning at 8AM and dragged my way downstairs and cooked some yummy breakfast! OH and when we stopped by Wal-Mart yesterday, they FINALLY had my favorite bread the Sara Lee 45 calorie whole grain bread. It is THE BEST and they are almost ALWAYS out of it so I went ahead and grabbed a loaf. After I ate this morning, I went ahead and fixed Katie’s breakfast and got dressed to get my exercise over with. It felt GREAT to exercise earlier in the morning!!! I went upstairs afterwards and woke Brad up so he could get Katie up and feed her while I get a shower. Took a nice shower then Katie went back to bed after I got out since she was whining and I was hoping she would sleep a long while before we had to go but nope, she mostly played in her crib THEN went to sleep when It was almost time to go! Figures! :sneer: Eventually fixed my hair and then my lunch so I could eat it on the way there. Got everything ready to go and headed out!

It took us a lot less time to get there than we thought so we went to Wal-Mart for almost 30 minutes before heading over to the OB/gyno office. LOL. The nurses who were there last year couldn’t BELIEVE how different I looked! :lulz: Comments like that make all this hard work worth every minute!!!! I had the usual womanly check up and chatted with the Doc for a little before heading out! Once we got home, we all got some food! I wanted to do something else so we loaded back up and went to the pond to feed the ducks! They were STARVING! Most of them came as close as they could! Walked around for a little bit then came home again and put Katie down so she could finally get a goooood long nap! I’m eating the rest of my protein snack and think I’m gonna work a little more on the new layout. Yaay!

We had guest speakers today at church and I must say, they were both very excellent. Their talks were very true and open hearted. They weren’t very many people in church today because of either sickness or vacation but I did enjoy it except for Katie’s overall whineyness. They were having a potluck meal after church but since Katie was getting very tired, we decided to go ahead and travel home. Afternoon consisted of the usual dish washing, laundry, lunch and talking to my Mom for a long while! THE COOL SPELL IS STARTING TONIGHT! Already feels good right now. Katie ran out of Tylenol and a few food items so this evening we loaded up and collected those at the store. Returned home to eat my protein snack which included a wedge of herb and garlic laughing cow cheese Brad picked up tonight!

Tomorrow is gonna be really busy with trying to get everything done earlier so that we can be at my OB appointment by 2:15pm and then I’m hoping afterwards we can find something to do since Brad is off work and we usually try to make Monday our family day. Tonight, Brad is cooking turkey burgers and I’m cooking some veggies to go along with it. I’m still working on my new layout but It’s almost ready to premiere! After I put it up I still have a LOT of work to do but I’m excited about it! Ugh.. I’m so tired! Brad’s taking a nap right now and I know I will be ready for some nice sleep tonight.

EDIT new layout is UP! YAY.. still have a lot to do but I really like it and hope you do too! I re-read this entry and realized I used the word VERY quite a few times haha.

I’m ECSTATIC to say I lost 4 pounds this week!!! WOOO! I cleaned house today and It was actually decent enough to open up lots of windows and let some fresh air in yet once again. Also cut up our watermelon and put that away in the fridge so now we have fresh, delicious watermelon to munch on! Nom nom!

If we put all the worry and stress aside and focus on our family, loving one another and devoting our time to showing that love then we would find a new happiness. It’s always a fight to keep that happiness because we’re gonna have evil invade our lives some way or another but that is what our faith is for. Life isn’t easy but we have to have that faith to make it a little bit easier. I’m so thankful for this life.

Faith. Love. Motivation. Determination.

These are the things that I live by and It really helps me stay in focus of things I need to do in my life. Having faith is so hard sometimes but we just have to let things progress as they may for this too shall pass. I just feel so joyous tonight! I know sickening right? Haha. I hope not, It’s good to be happy! Of course the happier I am, the more motivation seems to really kick up!!!

Currently waiting on my lovie to come home from work which should be here really shortly!!! I’m pleased to say I HAVE been working more on my new layout and am getting excited about it finally! Today has not been eventful at all but just another day. I’ve been seeing more and more previews for the new season of The Biggest Loser and I am SO ANXIOUS! I wish It was on TONIGHT! AAAH!!! Only a few more weeks! Speaking of exercise, I finally used our pilates performer machine today for the first time in a few weeks and It was nice! I could feel the burn in my arms and a bit in my tummy so that is awesome!

Hmmm well that’s all for today!

Been a pretty good day! Heres my random babble for the day!

I have been meaning to schedule my yearly OB appointment for a few months now but kept putting it off but I called a few days ago and have an appointment Monday! I can’t wait to see my OB again!! It’s been over a year now. She’s an amazing OB and while I was there, all her nurses were wonderful to me so I definetly look forward to seeing them. Not so much looking forward to the things within the appointment, lol. The joys of womanhood, huh? Speaking of that, I’ve now had my IUD for more than a year as well! I love it!!!

Well, we did have a cool spell that came through but the last day or two It’s been warming back up. It’s currently around 90! BUT… good news is that we have a chance for showers in the next few days and then ANOTHER cool spell is gonna pass through! I’m gonna REALLY miss summer but I really like fall because of the cool yet not COLD weather. I don’t look forward to the time going backwards either which means It’ll get dark real early… BOOOOO. I guess when we get a little extra money I’m gonna have to buy myself a new pair of pants since cooler weather is coming and my shorts I wear now I can put on without unbuttoning or unzipping so yeah need a few sizes smaller! I have a size 15 jeans but they don’t stay up either.

I’ve finally got motivated enough with my webdesign to put more work into my new layout!!! Also have been changing my myspace layout since I’ve had the same one forever but still have to finish working on that as well. I think I’m gonna attempt now to get more of that work done on those.. that is, IF Katie will stay content enough haha. Dun dun dun!

First up! We were supposed to have our church temple trip this Saturday but we decided since things have been so rushed and in a hurry, we’re gonna wait for another Saturday, which, I think is best. Some of my clothes for the trip are too long so we’re having to get a church friend to fix those so extra time is always good to get everything in order.

Yesterday was our usual busy grocery shopping day and then afterwards Brad went to the Tuesday night men’s meeting at our church. Brad’s Mom brought over her Netflix movie the other night when she was over keeping Katie. It’s called Tribulation and It was a very good movie! As you can guess, It was a religious movie. I would love to share religion with more people but nowadays, It’s so hard because people can be so cruel about it. I used to reject religion too until I attempted to understand and gain knowledge about it. My life makes so much more sense now. What an amazing feeling it is to have that knowledge and to know that If I live my life the best I can that I will get to spend eternity with my family. Who doesn’t want that??? That’s why I wanted to know all about it because If I can have the chance to spend forever with my family then I’m gonna strive for that in every way I can and that way is by opening my heart to God and to learn to be truly happy! Again, who doesn’t want that? SOOO many people just push religion away when It could open up a whole new book for them in making their life that much better. I pushed religion away most of my life because people either shoved it down my throat or scared me away from it and from that I became bitter and hardened away from religion. I also needed to find the right church for myself, one where I felt I belonged and could actually learn from and my church is definetly just that.

My religion and belief in God along with everything I’ve learned and will come to learn all play a part in making this life a little bit easier, If only a little but a little’s enough. I just want everyone to feel that joy and I know it was hard for me and took a lot for me to reach the point of where I am today spiritually. I have believed in God all my life but I used to believe we just died and that was it but what kindof God would let that happen? No, He wants us to be happy and be with our families forever. I remember any time someone religious would come around me, I used to get this feeling of “GRRR get away from me, I DON’T want to hear it!” but now that I am where I am now I think why? Why did I not try to listen? I was not ready at the time.

It’s so hard in this day and time to even discuss religion with anyone but I am going to say I am proud to be who I am today and believe what I believe because I’m happy! I only hope that someday so many more people will open their hearts to that happiness too. I remember meeting people in the church when I first joined and they smiled all the time and were scarily happy but guess what? Now I feel that way! I understand their joy.

If you believe in God but that’s it — I encourage you to dig deeper because there is knowledge there that will bring comfort and happiness to your life and we alll need that, espically with all the bad in the world trying to bring us all down. Look at me going on about religion… lol. It’s just very important to me and I want to share it! Thanks for reading If you have and I hope this does get some thinking process going for someone out there on the topic of religion.

I’m gonna try to make this a shorter entry since I’ve got dinner cooking and we’re gonna watch more of THE TUDORS episodes and I can’t waiiiit!

Yesterday and today have been very busy but I have been in such a great mood. Sunday went a LOT better and smoother than I thought!!! I didn’t have to clean the church after all so we got to come home and put Katie down for a nap. I decided Brad’s Mom was gonna watch Katie while we went out of town Sunday to take care of church things and that went excellent. Brad’s Mom and 3 sisters arrived at almost 3pm and then Brad and I left at like 3:40pm and had to be there at 5pm. We got a little lost but made it there, lol. Brad was in a men’s church meeting for 2 hours so I sat outside and talked to my Mom and Aunt on the phone! Was very nice. Met up with the main guy we needed to afterwards and got all that signed and taken care of for our upcoming temple trip. We didn’t get home till after 9pm but Brad’s Mom said Katie was awesome.

Here’s a run down of today’s events:
– Brad needed his blood pressure refilled and a new Doc so he set up with the Doc I’m seeing and actually got in today so he got his meds!
– Katie had her 15 month appointment and they said she looks great! She weighs 25.4 pounds, MY OH MY! Is 31 inches long! Also got 2 shots in one of her legs but she did great and they put a pink Pony sticker on her, heh
– Stopped by Wal-Mart to get Brads meds and a few other items
– Went to the pond to feed the ducks and fishies and It felt sooooo wonderful outside and still does!!!!

So been very busy but very, very content. We’re still supposed to have our big church temple trip this Saturday so I’m so excited for that. I’m gonna bawl my eyes out when me, Brad and Katie are sealed together as a family for all eternity. How special is that? There are no words!!! I love my life. It may be hard but LOVE is all that matters.

Yesterday was a rough day but today has well made up for it. Today has been nothing but great!!! INCLUDING the weather! It’s 79 right now with wind and low humidity and is soooo wonderful. Have had the living room and bedroom window open all day!! Nothing like fresh air in the house!! I chatted with Brad on MSN yesterday while he was at work like we usually do and I was telling him how I feel and so when he came home, he said nothing to me and we said nothing the rest of the night until today. I asked him why we haven’t talked and he said he just doesn’t want to talk about money. We’ve spent today focusing on the good and it’s all turned around thank goodness. When I saw him like that.. when I saw that this issue caused tension and silence between us – it’s not worth it!!! Money is just money and even though It’ll be a struggle, it’s not worth causing our relationship to suffer, ever because I love him too much.

Another bonus to add to the happiness of today is that I lost 2 pounds this week! Brad lost 1 pound so we both did good and I’m so proud of him. I cleaned the house up today and even did a little more than usual so I am ONE happy camper because a clean house is one thing that will uplift me even more. I cleaned out the fridge a little this afternoon and then chopped up the rest of our watermelon! I decided since It was such a beautiful day outside, I’d take Katie out for a bit in the backyard. She had her little shoes on so I walked her around the backyard holding 1 sometimes 2 of her hands and then we sat on the sidewalk for a long while. She played with some grass and then I walked her back in the house. She’s playing with her toys now and soon I’m gonna fix her and myself a little snack. Tomorrow and Monday are going to be very BUSY days!

From yesterdays experience I have had this lyric quote in my mind all day, “Hope for the best and let go of the rest” So true.. I don’t want to sit in anger and misery all the time when there’s really nothing I can do about our money situation at the moment so we just have to endure and focus on the brighter, good things in life. Life is so hard and frustrating but at the same time, life is short and precious so I am going to try to take in every second because we never know when this may be our last.

I hope everyone has a good weekend! Get out and enjoy the weather if it’s nice!!!!

I am so pissed off and aggrivated. One thing seems to be happening after another. I always try to be hopeful and uplifted but right now that is shifted towards anger and I don’t really care. I’m so fed up with a number of things that I just want to say WHATEVER.

Ship me off to an island please?

We’ve gotten our fair share of rain today! Also a random few storms as well with some lightning and thunder in the mix. Insert pause here to feed Katie. I think her second top tooth is trying to poke through so she hasn’t been too happy today but for now she’s content playing with her toys. She’s walking more and more! Not 100% but almost! Can’t say I’ve had much of an eventful day really but just along with my usual routine. I’m still getting used to my new haircut but I do have to say that with the cut my hair is considerably softer! That’s always nice espically when my hair is usually not that soft being so coarse.

Brad and I have so much coming up to do! Sunday we have to travel out to meet with one of the guys from Tupelo for the big event coming up with us for the church. Monday Katie has a Doctors appointment and I’m also supposed to meet up with a lady from church to go visit other members at their own homes. Tuesday Brad always goes to meet up with the men from church and try to go out to visit families. On the 29th is the big event with the church for us.. we are going to go to the Birmingham Temple and I’m sure it will definetly be interesting but I look forward to being able to share that experience with Brad. I wish we could travel 2 more hours out to see my Mom! That would be wonderful but it’s already going to be one CRAZY busy day so I don’t think that’s such a good idea on that particular day but I wish.

I worked a little more on my new layout haha. I’ll get it done one day!!!! I *think* I figured out the main image but I just have to work on getting the rest of it coded and all put together. Brad and I are still watching The Tudors! It’s a pretty neat show and it’s cool to see Sam Neill again – makes me want to watch Jurassic Park!! Anyhow, I’m pretty hungry so I’m gonna fix my snack and PS I think I hear more thunder!