I’m just so exhausted from crying between last night and today… I don’t know anymore. Brad and I can’t seem to compromise. I like to FACE UP to issues and problems and he DOES NOT. I WANT more than ANYTHING to talk about them… he DOES NOT. I don’t know what else to talk to him about and so you can see the issue. Whatever… he clearly isn’t ready to own up to his own issues so I’ll just leave him to do as he will. I want to talk these things through and he doesn’t so I’m just supposed to talk about something cheery instead?????? I just can’t!!!!!!!

I don’t know where this is going. Right now nowhere. We love each other but can’t seem to come to that middle ground AT ALL.

I talked to my Mom today and she said to focus on ME!!!!!! I’m gonna try to build up some support from online people. Since I can’t help Brad because he clearly doesn’t want my help with his issues and he’s CLEARLY not ready to deal with them then I’ll see who I can help. It’s part of who I am and what I really like to do! I love to help, inspire and help people motivate themselves. Mom’s right. I just gotta put my focus elsewhere and that’s HARD when you’re as stubborn as I am. Brad said on the phone a bit ago that he just wants to live peacefully – I told him we would, I’d just keep my mouth shut! There ya go. He gets his peace.